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The Singapore trip

2012-02-02T02:23:00.001+10:00

Been a while since I update. I’ll let the pictures do the talking this time. A post about the food, the people and the place.

Yum cha at Din Tai Fung for lunch on new year’s eve.

My grandma who flew all the way from Kuching, Malaysia to Singapore all by herself to meet with us!

Home-cooked lobster. Looks so yummy.

The rest of the yummy food at family-relatives gathering.

Meet Mariko! My niece! Can’t believe I’m only 17 and I’m already an auntie. Her mum looks like she’s only 20 and her dad is Japanese! SO COOL!

With my Tua King (one of my related aunties) waiting for the new year’s eve fireworks and countdown with the crowd.

Chinatown signifies the Dragon Year for Chinese New Year celebration.

Walked to Clarke Quay and enjoyed the view.

Flashing colourful lights water fountain place at Clarke Quay. Pretty.

Meet Darren. My Singapore tour guide for 4 days or so. He even went shopping with me and didn’t complain about waiting 45 mins outside the store for me. Future boyfriend requirement.

Had Buffet lunch at Zhou’s kitchen with dad’s brother and family together with my grandma and mother.

One of the nicest pearl milk tea i’ve ever tasted from Gong Cha!

Home-made family traditional dumplings by my Tua King. It’s so yummy she should set up a stall and start selling to the public!

The answer to my previous blog post. Marina Bay Sands. Newest building in Singapore. 57 storeys high. This is a mini structure model of the whole thing.

On top at 57 storeys high, waited for sunset and the night view of Singapore is so beautiful.

Pay 20 sing dollars and you’ll get a night view like this! SO worth it! I could stay up there for the whole night!

A must take picture with the Ferris wheel!!

Last day last-minute shopping at Serangoon! With 4 different flavoured egg tarts + pudding milk tea = paradise.

The very common two storeys escalator! Also known as express escalator. ;D

Window shopping around Orchard Road while enjoying the night view with mummy on the last night in Singapore.

G-U-C-C-I store.

Paragon. A shopping place for the rich. Very classy indeed.

Hello Alvin and the Chipmunks!

My last and favourite photo for this post! GRAND WHITE PIANO!! <3 <3 soon to be mine… jokes.

Okay. stay tune for more picture posts!

22 hours till my 18th birthday!

But why am I not excited? =/

About Singapore.

2012-01-12T15:19:00.001+10:00

In short, Singapore was fun, same like Australia but different at the same time. Shopping was awesome only if you have money, food was amazing with a wide range of variety and only one bad thing is the weather, the very humid terrible hot weather.

I was staying at my uncle’s, his place was in the city so it was near everywhere ! So everyday, we had to walk.

And walk.

And WALK.

And continue walking.

Notice how it’s always the three ppl ? And I’m always behind because they lead the way and I take the photos. My mum is on the left, grandma in the middle and the uncle we’re staying with - Uncle Lawrence. He’s so knowledgeable and knows everything hence the talking non-stop 24/7. Seriously.

In Singapore, all you do is walk, everyday and because I’m used to walking in Brisbane I’m fine, but for others, it’s a torture. Like my grandma, she has to sit down and rest once in a while, but she’s strong and healthy for her age.

For the few post i’ll update on where we actually walked to!

Here’s a little clue.

Jan 9th - I really permed my hair this time

2012-01-11T17:00:00.001+10:00

It’s a new year and I finally changed my hairstyle. after soooo many years. =)

I permanently permed my hair, after sitting in the saloon for 5 minutes when mum said she wanted to perm, i wasn’t thinking and i just said i wanted to perm mine too.

And by mistake, the lady cut a full straight fringe for me. No more side fringe. It doesn’t look that bad, like how everyone said I shouldn’t have full fringe. It’s not THAT bad for a change.

I’m just SO NOT USED TO IT my hair after perming! It’s like I have lion’s hair.

My length of my fringe is just nice so i can make it into a side fringe too. =)

Sorry for the no updates. Many many updates soon. Maybe when I get back or when I’m really really bored and free.

Leave some messages on my chatbox and let me know what you think of my new hairstyle! Good or bad comments I’m ready for it!

Dec 29th–Going to Singapore!

2012-01-04T13:29:00.001+10:00

This time, i had the privilege of taking Etihad airways from Brisbane to Singapore, not AirAsia, the 8 hours flight without food or water or comfort, unless if you wanna spend $50 to fill your tummy. Anyways, in Etihad, you get a blanket, a pillow, headphones for watching movies and food and drinks and 8 hours of comfort!

Before take-off we got our menu for the flight! So cool!

And it’s in Muslim language? What?

Oh right, of course they have English too! Double-sided, silly me.

Ready for take-off! Wheeee! I haven’t been to Singapore for at least 8 years, I was a tad bit excited =)

Our very own personal front seat screen view of the aeroplane runway!

So after 8 hours, I experience the terribly unbearable hot humid warm weather once i stepped out of the airport, and after that FOOD!

They called this Zhui Kueh! Direct translate to English is water cake wtheck.

Mi pok! YUM! it’s just noodles in English as you can tell. LOL.

How i miss CHEAP Asian food. I bought three cups of grass jelly for only $2.10!!!! which means one is only $0.70!!!

Ice Kacang! It looks really colourful but it’s also really good!

Just landed and already loving the atmosphere, the night life and everything!

I miss Asia.

I made macaroons!

2012-01-01T14:28:00.001+10:00

Just like i promised, a post about macaroons! I actually made macaroons twice, first time was fail.com and you can read and see the pictures from NE’s blog.

How the macaroons should look like

How my fail.com macaroons looked like

The two pictures look alike percentage = 0%

How my face looked like after seeing the result. *sobs*

I was disappointed at failing at first attempt making macaroons, hence the second time making it. This time I had a chef with me, she knew what she was doing so I just helped and followed.

And this time we made chocolate macaroons! yum!! And I must say, it’s a lot of hard work and patience, that’s why macaroons are so expensive!

In the process …

After 15 minutes of baking !

SUCCESS!!!!!!!!!!

And of course, the three bakers behind all these yummy macaroons! wooots =)

My very own successfully made chocolate macaroons.

Sorry for this late blog post, I’m in Singapore and having fun. This is my first blog post for 2012!! Happy New Year everyone =)

9th Dec – GOMA :D

2011-12-20T01:09:00.000+10:00

I never thought I could take care of lil kids because kids either scare me or run away from me for some reason, but I spent half a day with these two kids at Goma and I must say, I am now a babysitting master. no joke.

They’re having a fairy-tale theme exhibition for kids at Goma now, which explains the babysitting just in case you’re wondering, because babysitting isn’t really my cup of tea.

This is one of the few exhibitions by a Japanese or Korean artist I’m not sure? But I think she’s just really obsessed with polka dots. in a creative way.

We entered a white room with round-shaped coloured stickers stuck everywhere. As soon as you walk inside the room, a lady will hand you a sheet of stickers for you to stick wherever you like!

They even had a white piano decorated with stickers! so awesome!

Meet David (left) and Alvin (right)! The two lil kids NE. brought with her, and I just helped to babysit. They sat down as they got bored of the polka dot room while I was still inside taking pictures because i was too amazed and fascinated by it.

I could stay in there all day long and never get tired of sticking those colourful round stickers!

And next we entered the magic land!

A land that would never exist in real life, nah jokes don’t wanna kill the atmosphere. Erm so it’s basically a place filled with all these lil nice thingy I don’t know what they’re called!

Still don’t know what they’re called but it’s so pretty right? They’re really fragile so no one was allowed to touch it. I don’t know what they’re made of, but looking at them reminds me of colourful cotton candy.

Pink love hearts! <3

Yellow love hearts!

More love hearts! <3

These lil nice thingos are so precious and fragile they had to be displayed inside an enclosed cave. I guess the artist is just trying to display what they think magic land should look like. It’s more like a fantasy land. I think I get it.

But I’m yet to understand the polka dots room, even though I like it and think the artist is incredibly creative using polka dots to make art, I just don’t get why.

Our next stop was the Museum! But it was under construction and renovation so we couldn’t go in. So, we walked past the state library to get to the bus stop and saw many HUGE AS cockroaches on the ceiling! RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!

Well they’re fake, made of metal, but still, why on earth would you stuck so many huge massive metal cockroaches on the ceiling? D: this is definitely not Art.

Aren’t these two cute? Apparently it’s their signature pose whenever they’re together and taking a picture. Awww. I told NE. they’d both grew up and become good friends in the future but she didn’t seem to believe me and I don’t know why.

While waiting for my bus, we had a camwhoring session.

My favourite picture of the day!

Second favourite picture of the day!

It was so hard to get a good photo with Alvin! Because he gets distracted so easily.

Me: HEY Alvin where are you looking at? Alvin : *continues to stare and ignores my question*

And i thought i was in good hands at babysitting after spending a day with him.

Maybe not.

Stay tune for more holidays posts!

Up-coming post : I made macaroons !

Highlights of my after school holidays =)

2011-12-17T23:52:00.001+10:00

::: I did something I’ve never done before today, it felt good in a way, but a lil bit discouraged from it. I guess, you only give people what they need, at the right time. ::

I know I’ve been neglecting my blog for a while, but with so many other distractions in life, you can’t help but forget to sit down and take a few minutes to blog. Sorry readers.

I have 45 mins to spare right now, so it’s your lucky day ! Just a quick and short one !

Highlight number 1 :

Attended AMYC (Annual Methodist Youth Conference) at Melbourne few weeks ago!

It was basically a camp with 200+ young Christians from all states in Australia gathering together. Great fellowship and nice meeting a lot of new people. Spot me?

After camp I stayed in Melbourne for another 3 days. Walked around the city a lot, and obviously Melbourne is so much more interesting compared to Brisbane!

Highlight number 2 :

I met Jayesslee (Janice and Sonia) the famous youtube twins singers from Sydney, Australia at Hope church Ablaze youth service. Heard them sing live and they sound exactly the same singing live and in their videos!

Bought their shirt for $25 and got their autographs!! i was over-excited that I met them I couldn’t sleep that night!. nah jokes. I was happy to see them so blessed, singing to glorify God’s name by turning down Sony’s offer. *RESPECT*.

This is their newest video! Getting in the Christmas mood =)

Sonia is the one who’s always playing the guitar and Janice is the one who usually sings the harmony part. Together they sound perfect ! <3

Highlight number 3 :

I got on a Christmas bus !!!!!!!!

Well it was my first time, so it was pretty exciting for me okay!

As usual, I'm always and still the one who had to put up the Christmas tree in my house.

Highlight number 4 :

Last but not least, my very failed job-hunting day with NE.

We erm kinda sorta went. shopping? *guilty face* but we gave out resume! like only one. *coughcough*

We wanted dessert so we went to Soy Cafe opposite Sunnybank Hills Shopping Town. And it’s closed.

WHAT? are you kidding me? HOW CAN IT BE CLOSED?

wait hang on a second..look at the trading hours..

OH maybe because they don’t open on Tuesdays? It was the biggest joke of the day. We never knew they don’t open on Tuesdays!

But that’s okay, Tuesdays will be no-dessert day. I can live with just Breadtop.

Stay tune for more holidays post !

Up-coming post : GOMA!

My graduation –18th Nov

2011-11-21T15:47:00.001+10:00

So, tell me again, who in the world would have their students go to a graduation ceremony at 7.30am in the morning?

My school. =/

Even so, it was the last time we would ever wear our school uniforms and see our school and class mates.

The wait for my turn to get up on stage to receive our envelopes was long. The teachers even gave me the wrong envelope because a guy in front of me was absent. After another wait, i got the right envelope with my name on it the end..

Mum couldn’t make it to my graduation but it’s okay, I’ve got my dad.

It all ended quite fast, and it wasn’t as sad as I expected because they didn’t put sad songs, or graduation songs to make us emotional. I felt emptiness,plus JOY.

So it ended. Many hugs were given.

Farewell messages written.

Photos taken. This is my clan teacher, Mrs Nicolson. A teacher who gave us chocolate muffins each year to celebrate our birthdays.

My physics teacher Mr Williams, a very thoughtful teacher whom at graduation day gave each and every student in his physics class a bar of fudge as a gift with a farewell message on it.

I will miss his jokes.

My year deputy principal and year coordinator.

I opened my graduation envelope as soon as I got inside the car. Felt so happy when I saw this:

I finally made it. I graduated from high school with no tears =)

No more waking up at 7 in the morning to bus to school

No more getting yelled at by teachers

No more school uniform

No more boring morning tea and lunch times

No more seeing classmates on a daily basis

Just no more.

Welcome to the real world Hannah.

My school life ended.

2011-11-19T19:56:00.001+10:00

The past weeks have been really hectic for me. It was particularly that week which was the most unforgettable time of my life. Not only was I physically weak due to the amount of stress I had during exams, I was emotionally and mentally damaged too.

I was described as “exhausted, tired, grief, unhappy, blue, down, upset, heartbroken, sad, moody, discourage...”

And it’s true.

Nothing hurts more than seeing your loved ones in worries and despair. Being helpless and having the feeling of uncertainty. I hated a part of it but also feel thankful at same point.

So if you still haven’t heard, my grandpa in Malaysia deceased last Wednesday. The pain was there because I was having my final exams and because of that my brother and I couldn’t fly back there to pay our last respect. Guess this is life.

I would always remember every single details and happenings during that particular week, the most important dreadful times of my life. I truthfully thank those who stood by me and gave me support.

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Life goes on. Even if I was hurting or not.

10th of November. I managed to smile for the camera on my officially last day of class.

Not to forget my class photos

In Chemistry

One of the three physics class.

English! =)

Maths class. Love the expression on my teacher’s face.

BOM class.

Have no photo of my Chinese class because my teacher didn’t want a photo with us. *triple sad face*

My last day ended well because I got my maths exam results back, which made me so happy I was speechless.

I’ve never gotten such results for maths since I came to Australia. This is the reason that made me realised my stay here was worth it despite the fact that my family is going through hard times. --- Mr White also didn’t forget to write a farewell message. Gonna miss this uber cool maths teacher.

Even though Thursday was our last day of class, it’s not our last day of school yet. We still go to school, but we sit in the hall and listen to somewhat meaningful but boring talks for an hour and half then we go home.

Before I left sch, I didn’t forget to take photos with two most amazing music teachers I had since I came and am really thankful to these two teachers:

Mr Norrell. My clarinet teacher. Who taught me how to play the clarinet for three years. Gonna miss his jokes and laughter.

Mrs Luski. One of the best and nicest pianist/conductor/music teacher ever, who taught me music in year 10, who also chose me as her pianist for two years in the school choir.

Our last day was actually on the 16th of November, when we had our formal at night.

I apologize because I won’t be blogging about formal. But these are pictures of my preparation for formal.

Make up plus hair. About one and a half hour. The end result.

Thanks a lot to my make up and hair artist Rachel Lin. She’s by far one of the nicest person I’ve met. =) If you ever need a make up artist, I’d highly recommend her. You can visit her website here or Facebook page here.

Formal was unpredictable, enjoyable but not that memorable for me. I had fun, real fun when I was dancing my heart out. That was the best part of it all. Everything else was just so so.

My favourite picture of the day.

There goes my formal. It’s something I won’t really remember, honestly saying.

Stay tune for my graduation post! coming up soon.

3rd of Nov - Awards Night 11’

2011-11-19T18:07:00.001+10:00

I was privileged enough to be able to attend the Academic Awards Night. Not only we can skip a day of school to go to Gateway Centre to rehearse all morning ( which was utterly the most boring rehearsal ever), but the real awards night was absolutely enjoyable. =)

Being bored at rehearsal in the morning.

During the night, I enjoyed being part of performances..

cheered for people got who went up on stage to get awards and also went up to get my cultural award.

It all ended really fast. Way faster than the rehearsal.

It was an enjoyable night.

Of course I wouldn’t have done anything without these two most important people in my life. <3

Mum and Dad.

#credits to Clarice! who took all the photos with her pro camera. I really want a DSLR now.

Songs ;)

2011-11-01T21:46:00.001+10:00

Found these songs when i was hunting for a chinese P&W song on youtube. Explore around youtube and you’ll find yourself new songs on your ipod.

Awesome. ;D

They may not be the up beat pop lady gaga songs everyone listens to. But these songs get me through breakdown and hardships sometimes and calm my heart down.

I called them soothing songs. ;D

8 more days of sch? =( Kthxbye.

Gotta love apple

2011-10-29T18:00:00.001+10:00

If you don’t already know. I swapped my first love BB bold 9700 for apple’s iPhone 4. And also if you haven’t heard, the reason for this is because I was in desperate need of an ipod, yes ipod, life without music just kills me.

This itouch as a birthday present from my parents for my 16th got stolen 3 months ago. I still don’t know which bastard took it from my bag while i was in class, lesson learnt, do not leave your important stuff unattended.

It accompanied me through thick and thin for 16 months. It didn’t feel the same anymore when it was gone, I'll never forget those lonely bus rides. I wasn’t really sad or devastated or anything, it just felt weird like I'm missing an organ in my body and it wouldn’t function properly anymore. But I was really disappointed in that person who stole it. WHY YOU TAKE SOMETHING THAT IS NOT YOURS?

So well, my body malfunctioned for at least 2 months (although i ransacked my bro’s ipod nano whom was happy for me to borrow it for a while). But in the end, I felt bad borrowing it for too long, instead of getting a new ipod why not just get the iphone?

After debating with myself for one month whether or not to get it because i was such a loyal blackberry user, I ended getting iphone 4 for a ridiculously cheap price from a friend. So just like that, I joined the apple family.

It’s been exactly 1 month since i got it and i still can’t find any reasons to hate it. Except for the fact that it’s not like the new sensational iphone 4s with the coolest feature function ever – Siri. But that’s okay, I don’t mind.

I used to be a blackberry fan, under the influence of my brother. I love blackberry, still do. But now that I’m using Apple, how can I not love it too?

Being an ex-blackberry user, and current Apple user, I honestly can’t tell which is better because they both have their own goods and bads. And this brings me to these two statements below ::

1. Things I like about Apple (iPhone 4)

Built in ipod.
Amazing apps and games. Blackberry has apps, but there are not easy to download where as apple users just get them from app store on iTunes.
5MP camera. plus 3G front camera for Facetime. (and camwhoring, *cough cough*)
High resolution screen with Retina display.
The best of all - The power of iCloud. by setting up PhotoStream, without plugging your cable into your laptop, with wifi, pictures taken on my phone will be automatically updated on my laptop.

2. Things I like about Blackberry (BB bold 9700)

Keypads. Easy and nice to type. I like the touch of pressing on keypads on blackberry compared to tapping on a screen on apple to type. I miss that.
The one button click to unlock screen. I get annoyed at sliding to unlock my iphone lock screen.
Instant pop up mail to your inbox. On iphone, you have to click on mail to refresh it because it doesn’t automatically receive new mails instantly.
Easy convenient file transfer to computer. Just drag and drop. No need for syncing files or music on iTunes like apple.

So, there you have it. i think most people are smart enough to differentiate which is better than the other. I’d still be using my blackberry if it wasn’t for that person who stole my ipod. I guess, I have to say thanks ?

As for my blackberry, I miss using it. Guess I’ll have to say goodbye to it. and give it a new owner soon.

Titration comp finals 2011

2011-10-29T09:55:00.001+10:00

So, my team got into the finals, after miraculously getting sixth place on the regionals competition, we made it into the finals. yay! but sigh it means wearing our school uniforms again on a Saturday to go for this competition.

Three teams from my school won regionals and got into the finals. My team is one of them. Each team consist of three members.

And these two people are my awesome team members! The best team members i could ever wished for =D

We even have our own individual box with our equipment!

On that day, my team didn’t really expect to win because we know it’s not easy so we just decided to have fun during the entire 3 hours of the competition.

Not much pictures during the titration because my team members weren’t in the mood for pictures that day.

So, after 3 hours of hard work, so three teams from my school got into the finals and one of them got third place =D Everyone got an individual medal for their effort and it was awarded to us when the results were announced. You either get gold or silver. With my errors in the results I should have gotten a bronze or something, but I think you don’t make it into the finals for nothing.

My silver medal.

And a group photo of all three teams from my school. Notice that random tall guy at the back, just joking he’s not random he’s our teacher.

Note to self : only 10 more days of high school left. ever! =(

The cuckoo clock

2011-10-16T14:00:00.001+10:00

Yeap. Mum bought a cuckoo clock.

I’ve been trying to get used to it for a week now. Honestly saying, it’s kinda annoying .. especially when you’re trying to sleep uh huh, it cucks every half an hour and it’s on the other side of my bedroom wall, which makes it 10 times louder than usual.

But i respect the idea of cuckoo clock, great invention. Mum loves it. No complain. End of story.

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I finally finally cleaned my room !! It was few weeks ago but anyways i vacuumed, wiped my shelfs, did everything I could to clean the mess I made.

The result of not cleaning it for more than 3 months. – x10 layers of dust.

I’m trying to give my room a mini makeover, still in the process of it. I rearranged my everything and took down all my postcards.

Still thinking how i can change it, I’m just sick of my room’s layout now. I’ll let you know when i get it done. =P not anytime soon – Blame school ! but it will be done. =)

I just love the feeling of having no worries, no anxiety, no fear of judgement and no fear of being left or feeling alone. That’s the best feeling in the world.

I feel pretty / unpretty

2011-10-11T16:54:00.001+10:00

Do you ever feel like going up to that someone and saying whatever is in your heart to that person sometimes? But of course it takes a great amount of courage to do that. But what if the first move can change everything? Chances don’t come easily, right?

I was introduced to a song by Glee called I feel pretty/ unpretty. Absolutely addicted to this song right now because the lyrics really speaks my heart out. =)

If you don’t like this song, then you must have very special taste of music. Loving this song because it’s saying that everyone is beautiful and unique in their own ways. There’s no need to hide of any imperfections because inner beauty is what that matters the most.

Don’t think I can ever live my life without music and i just have the urge to learn every music instrument that I can get my hands on. I’ve been recently self-learning the guitar, it’s definitely not easy because it’s nothing like piano, but anyone who can play the guitar is just freaking awesome, not to mention singing and playing at the same time, multitasking, it’s not something I’m good at. Give me time and you’ll see me on youtube.

…..nah. just kidding..

Finally Max Brenner

2011-10-10T21:49:00.001+10:00

There is always just that one moment when you just have absolutely no one to talk to, or call, or text or complain to. I’ve had those moments, and it’s not something to be proud of.

Oh yeah. So school is back after two weeks of holidays, where I pretty much just went out, came home eat shower sleep and went out again. Sadly, that holiday life ended one week ago.

Now I'm left with 5 more weeks of high school, a school formal and graduation. yay! not.

My mind hasn’t really recovered from holidays yet. Well at least not entirely. I’m still wishing that i can sleep in until 10am or 11am. Impossible.

AND I finally went to Max Brenner last holidays! A restaurant that serves basically everything with chocolate in it.

The Max Brenner I went to was at Robina Town Centre at Gold Coast, but there’s one at Southbank.

The two tuti-fruitti.

If you haven’t been to Max Brenner and you’re living in Brisbane where Southbank is only a bus ride away, i say you’re really missing out big time! I mean who doesn’t love chocolate?

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It has only been two weeks into last term of high school for me, and I’m super tired and sick of it. Because i just see no fun in it anymore, where people around me most of the time talk about other people rather than themselves. And, I don’t think anyone has ever or would ever truly care about what others feel, being selflessness because it’s hard to not think about yourself all the time. Perhaps if you were in my position you would feel the same.

Can i still be me?

2011-07-28T21:42:00.002+10:00

I know the title may be a bit confusing but sometimes when a lot of things are happening around you, you can’t help but feel lost of your own identity, asking the question are you still, you? typical.
Like us human beings adapting to the extreme weather change from hot to cold. The end result is that everyone needs to survive in the end, that’s why they need to change. It’s like the peer pressure you feel whenever the people around you have iphones, and you tell yourself you need to get one too because without it everyone will look down on you.
I see everyone around me changing, for good or for worst I don’t know. People are what others want them to be, but they never be who they really are. People say be yourself, whoever you are, but can you? without other people judging?
If you agree, like it! If you disagree, hate it!
To anyone who still checks my blog regularly, i wanna say thank you and i love you! i apologize for leaving my blog dead for a while now. life hasn’t been treating me right recently. I hardly blog now because i’m more addicted to TUMBLR!
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2011-07-10T20:25:00.002+10:00

My two weeks holidays is coming to an end, but i must say, this is the best school holidays I’ve ever had. And that’s probably because half of my holidays have been taken up by the 4 days 3 nights Winter Youth Camp at Mount Tambourine.
It was my first camp, and everything was just new to me. From the talks, and morning devotions, praise and worship. When you’re there, everything just feels awesome. Away from your normal routine and civilisation. (there was no network courage up there). It was sort of like a getaway for me, but also an experience i would never forget because I really learnt so much and feel so much more spiritually alive.
Just one negative thing, I wasn’t ready for the cold. I’m not lying but it’s freaking cold up there, not forgetting to mention the cold shower i had on the first day because the heater for the hot water was broken. BRRRR. if anyone hasn’t showered in cold shower during winter, you should try it. It’s like having ice water pouring all over you and your whole body just feels like cold hard frozen ice after that. good experience but i would never ever want to do it again.
And plus, I did not have enough sleep. I wore 4 layers to sleep, curled up in my sleeping bag, with my head covered inside, but i still felt cold, literally shivering, so I couldn’t sleep for the first and second night. Never felt so cold in my life before, it felt like it was zero degrees, but no one had thermometer so we couldn’t tell. From that, i was basically weak from sleepless night and with all the activities going on during the day, the last day for me was just rough. It’s like a tradition to stay up on the last night of camp to write messages for people, most people do it, I tried, stayed up till 4am but i went to bed when my head started spinning and that i couldn’t walk properly and felt like a zombie because i knew it was my limit.
icy cold shower + 3 sleepless nights = a sick me
Got the cold and flu, basically at my weakest right now. Mum says i have wolfing cough, it’s not cough from the throat but from the lungs and caused by virus attack, I was like erm, no, i think it’s being too cold up at mount tambourine.
Probably not the best time to be sick now since school is starting in 2 days, but oh wells =( can’t deny the fact that i enjoyed this holiday and camp was mainly the reason why this holidays was awesome =))

when it all falls apart

2011-06-16T22:16:00.002+10:00

When life isn’t treating you fairly, what do you do?

Guess there’s nothing you can do about it, just gotta smile and move on. it doesn’t mean the end.
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Over and done with blocks for this term, still waiting to get our senior jersey, still waiting for subject results, still waiting for this term to end and the holidays to come.
Even though it’s after blocks, i have an assignment to start on, an oral script to write up, and another assignment to be given soon. =(
“You know what I think hurts the most? The feeling of being replaced. It’s like no matter what you did, it wasn’t enough. And no matter what you do to try and capture their heart again, doesn’t seem to work. And you’re suddenly left thinking that you’ll never be enough. And a sudden sadness captures your heart that never really leaves.” - tumblr.com

Immune

2011-06-03T22:42:00.002+10:00

Worst feeling in the whole wide world, is the feeling you get when you know you’re not doing enough, that you’re never going to be good enough like that someone, that you’ll never make that someone proud, or that you’ll never be noticed by anyone. that feeling is depressing.
no, it actually hurts. a lot. like a knife stabbing through your chest.
even when you did try, you still couldn’t do it. when others do it so easily. why is it that i can’t do what others can do? why don’t i have the courage to do what normal people do. you see other people getting what they don’t want or don’t need but you never have the chance of getting anything at all.
when you feel so stupid it’s not even funny, when everything is right in front of you crystal clear and you were just blinded to see. i could have known so i would be less hurt. or is it just me making crazy assumptions that is never true.
the feeling you get when you feel the world is failing on you, when there’s no hope, or you feel like you’ll never be happy again.
don’t know what to feel atm -
last time shedding tears, was half a year ago.

A day to remember

2011-05-28T23:29:00.002+10:00

Had Titration competition at UQ this morning. it’s not a competition i would enter, but when i signed up for it, i just wanted to have fun =) and i did.
after the panic and rush, after everything --- our team got sixth place. =D awesome awesome feeling =)). Who would have thought that my team would win. I guess it’s also luck. i mean there’s so many other teams that are better at titrating than us, and i guess it’s somewhat miracles? or luck or it’s just meant to be =D i love my team members <3 if u’re reading this, you know i love you. good teamwork <3
And. i learnt something else in life too from today. =) it’s not always about you. let someone else have a go.
And. in conjunction with titration comp, tonight i worked my last shift and now I'm officially free from work. hallelujah.

Things I Don’t Understand

2011-05-22T02:13:00.001+10:00

Have you ever wonder how sometimes there’s this someone who is always the centre of attention and even though that person doesn’t try at all, they’re just always noticed by people. It’s like they just have that sort of power in them that attracts people and win over people’s heart without trying while others may be struggling to be like them and try so hard but still fails.

Have you ever wonder why people judge by appearance? Why is it that people never notice anyone who is shy or too quiet to talk in class? Why is it that people who are pretty or handsome get noticed by people the fastest and become the talk of the school? Does it mean that a quiet shy girl would never be noticed by anyone and not have friends at all? Does it mean that an average looking guy would never be noticed by the prettiest girl in school?

Have you ever wonder why people say everything happens for a reason but some things happened in your life but you don’t understand why? Good or bad things happened and you want to know why it happened. Have you ever come across a day where you ask yourself the question WHY a hundred times a day? And no one is there to tell you why.

What would you do if the world ends tomorrow? Would you regret not doing the things you love but have no time left or no chance? Would you regret not treating your parents the way you should have? Would you regret not saying sorry to that person you have hurt so much? Most important, would you have the courage tell that special someone you love them? Because no matter what happens tomorrow, that someone deserves to know the truth.

Change

2011-05-11T18:11:00.001+10:00

Suddenly just feel like writing this post because I’m listening too much of Maribelle Anes’s song – letting go. The lyrics really speaks my heart.

I’m addicted to this song.

I think it’s for the good that things are changing all the time. It’s just the nature of life? People change, things change and you can never go back in time. What was gone will forever be gone and it’s hard to get it back again i guess. That thing we used to have.

Letting go and moving on. No point in me trying so hard to make things the way like they were before. You live your life and I'll live mine. I used to try too hard. The end of year 12 is approaching and i wonder what we would be next time when there’s no more school? or when we don’t have anything in common anymore? DW I'm not emo. haha =)

Went to PA hospital Allied Health career forum this morning which was erm so so, but having a day off from school today felt good. =)) Glad we didn’t have to wear school uniform while other private school students went with their full school uniform, blazers, hats, etc. sucks for them =P

I think going there today make me see things even more differently, didn’t use to know what I wanna do as my career but now I’m definite that I wanna go into this field, really just want to work in a hospital and help people. My goal.

I’m gradually changing, no more play and more working hard. I used to go to classes and day dream for 70 min or 35 min and be the first to leave the class when the bell goes, now I actually listen and learn something from each lesson. the stress in term 2 is getting to me and not studying will equals to failing my subjects. definitely don’t want that.

Last thing I want to say to anyone who is reading this,

If you really want someone in your life, make an effort and let them know that or make them feel wanted, if you don’t, then move on and let go, no point in being stuck in between because it’ll make you go crazy.

Happy Easter holidays

2011-04-22T22:02:00.001+10:00

I’m glad i survived the first term of year 12. with only 5 days left of holidays, I want to make full use of every minute and every second that’s left, which means less facebooking, chatting etc. I don’t go online that often anymore anyways.

It was good friday today, had a very relaxing day, which got me thinking a lot about everything. Went out to a park, chilled, took pictures while walking around the park.

While going through the pictures, i found a picture that speaks my heart out.

I’m so fed up of my life

2011-03-23T22:32:00.002+10:00

I’m kind of sick of my life now. I know this is bad, bad bad bad, because one month ago, or weeks ago I was a completely different person, with a positive outlook on life, that’s how my friend described me, she even said, something must have happened in Malaysia that caused this significant change in my personality.
But, the longer I’m here, the longer i feel like I'm falling back, falling down into a black hole, back to where i started, back to how i was last time, I’m back to my old self. the quiet, emo, always depressed person i used to be. AND I DON’T LIKE IT.
but i don’t know what’s going on with me.
frustration is piling up and it’s not helping when nothing is going your way at all. year 12 can be a wonderful year, it’s the last year of high school, but for the past few weeks, during exams time, and getting your results back, there’s just way too much competition between friends and just anyone or everyone. everywhere and wherever i go, people are talking about their results and it’s damn frustrating i tell you.
it’s such a big thing, results, that it determines your future that everything depends on it and everyone chooses results over everything else. worst thing is when i finally realised that, and i witnessed that between results and friendship, people choose results over friendship. and that is just pathetic. and it’s RIDICULOUSLY TRUE. i really wonder why.
and it’s not that they didn’t do well, they think it’s not good enough. it makes me wonder, why the heck am i doing with my life now, I'm slacking, I'm fooling around in class and never listens, and it shows in my results. when i see myself getting the results i have, and with the results other people got, i don’t know if i should laugh or cry about it? it’s just funny. am i even doing my best. honestly not.
i work better under pressure, and without it, i can’t do anything well.
which is better, find back the happy go lucky me and be carefree and fail exams or back to my old self emo depressed but get better results.
i want to be happy and not fail my exams.

tumblr addicted

2011-03-20T12:27:00.001+10:00

i have tumblr now.

the new facebook, msn, twitter, blogspot, plurk. it’s so much more interesting than anything else. i can tumblr all day long =)

follow me here :)))))

Back to reality

2011-02-21T16:17:00.001+10:00

I’m glad to say that after two weeks had gone past since i came back from Malaysia, I'm starting to get hold of my real life now, rather than just party all day long and not have to worry about anything at all. that’s how i was, on my holiday mood, no responsibilities, no worries, no frustration.

Getting organised, actually having something to do and not just play all day, living a student life like everyone else, get yelled at by teachers because i didn’t do my homework, or getting frustrated over little little things that happen in life. That feeling of being a senior at school, (though it hardly makes any difference from year 11 anyway) but i just couldn’t help but tell myself this year is the last year, i just ~~have~~ must live it to the fullest.

my apologises for this no photo post,

because the last time i remembered using my camera was a month ago.

and there’s a lot more stuff in my life that i need to sort out right now.

till next time ~

A late birthday post

2011-02-14T21:59:00.001+10:00

I must say, Happy birthday to myself!! ;)) although it was 2 weeks ago. but anyways, didn’t had the most unforgettable birthday this year. but definitely special even without the birthday song. xD

Celebrating it in Malaysia definitely feels different, i totally forgot that it was my birthday since CNY is more important, cuz it’s on the same day! double the celebration, double the ANGPAO. woots <3

anyways. big THANKS to those who took time to get me a present. THANK YOU so much cuz i really do appreciate it!

I got some awesome gifts this year. (only posting those gifts i received here in Australia sorry Malaysia friends but thankssss to you guys tooo i love the gifts!)

I received this the night i got back to Australia, i remembered i was busy unpacking n i was still dizzy and jet-lagged but this present sent to my door step made my day <3 thank you Monica.

And i got all of these the next day i got back to school the next day. WOOTS. thanks again. =)

blahs. happy valentine’s day everyone. <3

Happy CNY.

2011-02-09T18:40:00.001+10:00

i finally celebrated chinese new year. after two whole years. no doubt it was the best new year ever.

CNY eve. dinner with family. the tradition.

First day. Me and my younger cousin.

With my older cousin.

Visiting!

Okay sorry fast forward to Second day!

Visiting again. Cynthia’s open house.

Third day! visiting with ex classmates.

Me and my other cousin who is only primary 3 ;D

Fourth day. Farewell lunch. =(

I was at airport and i met STELLA!! a friend i haven’t seen for years! who would have thought we would meet at the airport. She was back from holidays and I’m leaving!

Sad.

the last time to bbm like crazy. i miss digi.

3 more days!

2011-02-01T03:56:00.001+10:00

OMG it’s 3 more days to my BIRTHDAY. 3 more days to CHINESE NEW YEAR. i don’t feel the cny mood yet but I’m excited! :)

OH i went to pierce my ears again.

for those who didn’t know. yesh. i pierced my ears before but i was stupid because i didn’t wear any earring for one week and the hole was gone cuz it grew back to normal.

SO i had to endure the pain and go through the piercing again.

OUCH. but i know it’ll be worth it. in the long term.

Then we went to the Tray. a nice place for chilling out with friends at padungan. beside Zhen Hao. We only went for a drink.

I ordered ice oreo cookie crush! very naise! <3

Mum and her friend ordered ice coffee.

I LOVE the atmosphere there.

romantic isn’t it? PLS tell me i didn’t grow any fatter!!

nothing but the perfect mother and daughter picture.

Sibu trip.

2011-01-27T04:15:00.001+10:00

Sorry that I’ve been leaving my blog dead for so long again! I've been away to Sibu, my dad’s hometown, a small remote town. Just got back this morning. Back to civilisation. INTERNET finally. the past few days without internet was killing me. although luckily i had my Blackberry with me. otherwise I'll be a dead person.

Pictures talking. this is day one.

View from the top of the building where my grandma house is.

Lunch when we got there.

we called it tin ming ngu in foochow.

I remembered not sleeping at all the night before going off to Sibu that day, I didn’t look that bad, just heavy eye bags.

And then at night there was dinner with my grandma’s Tai Chi community at a Chinese restaurant.

Me and my grandma! she’s freaking cool.

Spot my grandma! she’s up on stage.

There were performances during the dinner too.

At the end of the night, i was a dead person.

Something i learnt, never skip bed time for one night otherwise you’ll end up like me.

Dozing off during performances. fml.

oh and sorry there are not much pictures in this post, there are lots and lots more pictures taken but in another camera! =(

Quick update

2011-01-21T00:54:00.001+10:00

sorry for leaving my blog dead for so many days. I went on a 4 days 3 night trip to KL and it was there where i met my parents after one month not seeing them =)

first night was SHOPPING at Berjaya Times Square. It was Saturday night so it was damn packed and crowded with people shopping like us! having my mum shopping with me was so much more convenient. ahem because she has a credit card. :P :P

CNY mood. everywhere i see is RED!

And then we went to eat 炖鸡. normal chicken with i don’t know what soup which is good for health.

The next day was also shopping at One Utama. also everywhere red.

Blah the second day was not much. Mum met up with her friend and together we all went shopping.

The very last day. I didn’t get to shop much =( one thing i hate about KL is that the hours spent in the car travelling to one place and another is more than the hours spent on shopping. =( terrible traffic. just terrible.

This super super cute rabbit that i found in Empire shopping mall while waiting for my dad’s friend to go for dinner.

The morning when we were about to leave KL to come back to Kuching =)

My cousin from KL. which i hardly ever talked to since young! i have many cousins, we just hardly ever meet up and talk. but this time since she drove us all the way to the airport so it was a good one hour chat in the car. =)

so i’m back in Kuching now. going off to Sibu again soon. damn feels like the airport is my second home.

14.1.11 Proud to be Malaysian

2011-01-15T01:52:00.001+10:00

Don’t know if anyone here has seen Malaysian made movies. like Cicak Man, Possessed, erm what else? thing is, there aren’t good awesome movies, i never seen them before too because i heard it was crap.

BUT this movie, 天天好天, also a Malaysian made movie was NICE!!! All the scenes were filmed in Malaysia, KL to be precise. Languages like hokkien, canto, chinese and some malay were used in the movie, starring few chinese stars from Malaysia i think. Sponsored by Samsung, My.fm, and others i can’t remember.

The movie was released only yesterday and showing in cinemas here and I went to watch it today!!!

i should be doing a thumb up there!! instead of just pointing.

because this picture was taken BEFORE i watched the movie. didn’t know it would be THAT awesome! never knew Malaysia could produce such good movies.

touching meaningful funny awesome movie. don’t wanna be a movie spoiler so watch it for yourself!! =)

piece of advice from me - if you know you get emotional easily at movies bring tissues when watching this, you will need it.

LOVE the theme song for the movie.

good job Malaysia. first time ever <3

12.1.11 A day of shopping

2011-01-13T03:08:00.001+10:00

Stayed in for the past two days and today finally my cousin and I went out for shopping! =) although we might not have the same taste when choosing clothes but my cousin is also one of a kind, who loves shopping, like me!

The BEST thing about shopping is trying on clothes. because it’s FREE. i hunted for dresses, bit addicted to dresses recently. found a few, and this black one was my favourite!

I LOVE this dress to death!!! but i couldn’t buy it because i didn’t have enough money with me! it was 79.90. =’((((

while we were there, i saw this white jacket, i LOVE IT TOO!! and i couldn’t buy it because again i didn’t have enough money with me =(((( this was 45.90. bit expensive for a jacket my cousin said. so oh well.

I only ended up buying a white dress. Then we went to another place and went crazy taking all the dresses to the fitting room to try on.

We counted. together we both took 12 dresses.

my cousin said this dress was very Lady Gaga style. LMAO.

after trying all 12 dress, i only ended up buying one black and white strip dress, as for my cousin, she didn’t like them.

We spent the whole day shopping, from afternoon till night, and we’re still energetic for more! me + her = two crazy girls who can really shop.

though i had a headache at the end of the day, but can’t blame me because i only slept at 4am in the morning.

things i bought. two hair ties and two dresses. =)

a girl just CANNOT live without shopping.

crazy night

2011-01-11T16:47:00.001+10:00

yesterday was sort of a normal usual day at home, until at night it was around 11 to 12 when my aunt (cousin’s mum) came into my cousin’s room and said she wanted to curl her hair because she’s going overseas the next day.

funny because no one curls their hair at this time of the day right? so anyways my cousin and i helped to curl my aunt’s hair and it’s done. using the curlers.

so there were few left and my aunt was like “lai Hannah, i help you curl your hair.” LOL! i was like okay. and she did.

I look like a retard. was only for fun. temporary curly hair.

Just wait for 5 minutes then it’s done!

my cousin laughed her arse off looking at my hair. too puffy she said.

honestly curling my hair ain’t a bad idea at all.

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on the side line, while i was blogging this my mum called, from Australia. she said Queensland is flooded because of the non stop rain. THAT’S THE STATE I LIVE IN. i saw the news too, Brisbane’s river bank is broken, the Brisbane city is affected.

my mum had to come home from work in the afternoon just now because the Prime Minister Julia Gillard announced that translink buses will stop at 2pm so everyone was asked to go home.

Mum has a colleague who lost contact of her parents who are living in Toowoomba. terrifying thought. =( Lord have mercy on them.

There are many missing in Toowoomba and some has lost their lives too. Read the news here. Watch the flood washes away the cars in the youtube video below.

Everyone is worried, even my parents because they just went off to Woolies to stock up food in the house just in case.

Please pray for those who lost their family members in the flood and also those who lost their home. It’s raining everywhere =( May God have mercy on this land and stop the rain.

Pictures talking part 1

2011-01-11T02:00:00.001+10:00

just finished chatting with my mum and she requested for MORE pictures. so here’s to my mum. i went through my photo album, i do have some interesting photos since my travelling. but it’ll take some time to sort it out. few pictures per post =)

in no order at all. random nice photos that i found.

daily schedule book given from cousin back from holidays in Taiwan. =)

earrings i bought so far.

especially love the smiley face one! only for RM2!!!!

accessorized my blackberry!

i found the hello kitty cover for RM35!!!! LOVE IT!

me and my grandma.

imagine a pizza here. but only capsicum left. it’s not just me. EVERYONE hates capsicum. =)

the weekends

2011-01-10T03:02:00.001+10:00

this weekend was all packed with activities. all family related stuff. relatives from singapore came on friday.

had dinner together that night. asian style.

the butter prawn. i love <3

i look fat in this picture but others look good so whatever =) from left to right, our relative and his wife, my grandpa and grandma. the guy in the pink shirt really knows how to talk, almost after each sentence he said, everyone laughed, he could be a comedian no kidding.

since they’re only here for the weekends and leaving by tomorrow afternoon, my aunt could drive them around to places so i followed. AND they’re staying at the new hotel Pullman. so we could pay a visit to their hotel room.

best part of the hotel room is that you can see the whole of Kuching. awesome!

found this lamp in the toilet. but it’s nice right. next time if i own a house, i must have this kinda lamp.

before we left we had a taste of the cake at the hotel. nice but expensive.

the cappucino.

i didn’t expect for more so i reckon it was a great weekend.

life’s happenings

2011-01-06T14:35:00.001+10:00

nothing much since school reopened. things are slowing down.

my body too is weakening.

finally bought pills yesterday. ate some already and hoping the pills will start to kick in real soon.

welcoming the year 2011

2011-01-01T03:12:00.001+10:00

Pictures talking. =)

waiting at the saloon for my turn to dye my hair. took me the whole afternoon.

my copper reddish hair.

since i had no plans at all for new year’s eve. i had time to spare and i did some DIY.

a laptop makeover~! my laptop used to be like this.

After one solid hour of hardwork, patience and effort.

my master piece. =)

i don’t know bout you but i LOVE it. =) some way to spend my new year’s eve. XD

Happy New Year everyone =)

2010-12-31T03:06:00.001+10:00

GOTCHA!!!

i was just kidding in my previous post about my perm hair. it’s just temporary!!! i still have my own natural hair yay!

few updates. i finally got my blackberry bold. in WHITE! <3

finally got my own! anyone with BB out there. add my bbm me. my pin is 2292C7D6.

free customized back cover! love <3

went to see 神木与瞳 at the hills. stood there and waited for two hours for them to come. due to flight delays and bad weather. rawr. but it was worth it, they can sing really well. =)

my cute laptop keypad now. i had time to stick them on one by one =) call me crazy insane insane crazy. but i love them!!

i’m kinda lazy to say more. till next time.

happy new year people =)

I permed my hair! ;D

2010-12-28T18:10:00.001+10:00

i finally went to the hills shopping mall. never been there before cause it’s newly opened. it’s a big place but empty.

i have curly hair now! say goodbye to straight hair!

HELLO TO CURLY HAIR. =)

how do i look in curly hair? =) i actually quite like it.

the back view. loving this photo! <3

no more natural straight hair.

25/12/10 Merry Christmas!

2010-12-27T16:17:00.001+10:00

It was Christmas eve where i went to church. no sermons, just hell lot of children singing Christmas Carols.

Feels different going to this church. People are not that fond of hand shakes here, when everyone was singing and the praise and worship leader said to shake hands with everyone to wish them merry Christmas, i held out my hand to a 5 year old boy to wish him a merry Christmas, he looked at me like I’m a monster and stared at me for 10 seconds. =.= and still didn’t shake my hand. so i gave up and turned to other people to wish them merry Christmas.

Then i went to The Spring for countdown. fireworks display for 5 minutes. nice =)

Really cute Ecard from a friend.

Merry Christmas everyone.

22/12/10 – Happy Dong Zhi!

2010-12-25T05:06:00.001+10:00

Until this day i still don’t understand the meaning of dong zhi. but i know since i young, i love to eat the dough, and also it’s fun to be making the dough. unfortunately this year, because i was at a sleepover so i didn’t get the chance to make the dough.

I think it’s a tradition to have dinner with family members on dong zhi. So that night, i had dinner with grandparents and uncles and aunties. The dinner was at permata, the exact same place and same store we used to go to eat dinner for occasions like these when my family and I were still here.

I forgot to take pictures of the food, but these are the leftovers xD

OH WHEEE. I have pictures.

My grandparents and I. I think the longer time i spend with my grandma, chatting to her every day, the more i think my mother is like her. i can see my mother in my grandmother. They both have really strong views about some things, and have their own 人生道理. serious. no kidding. in a good way.

This one is with my second uncle. Mum’s second big brother and his family. it would be one complete family photo, just missing another one of my cousin.

This one with my mother’s youngest brother and his family. they finally let me take a picture with them. the kid in the blue was so scared of the camera but okay this is a nice family photo =)

After eating the dinner i was bloated full, but i just had to eat tang yuan. that’s what dong zhi is for! eating tang yuan. and my grandma’s tang yuan is special, cause the soup is brown in colour.

Cause my grandma cooked it with brown sugar. I love tang yuan <3 had a big bowl of it before i went to bed.

Happy Dong Zhi everyone.

21/12/10 first time manicure ;)

2010-12-23T16:13:00.001+10:00

I went to The Spring again, saw a new restaurant at ground floor beside the stage. just had to take a picture of it. =P

It was only 10am in the morning, that’s why all the tables are still empty.

Met up with girlfriends again. Altogether it was five of us. ;) we all used to be primary school classmates.

After the chatters, someone suggested to go for manicure, so we went to this store called Enail on the same floor as MBO. i was excited cause i never had a manicure done before.

We could choose any normal designs to be printed on our nails, but we didn’t, we chose to take a picture of us. ;)

After the picture was taken, the girl started to paint my nails.

The girl painted my thumb nail white. After few minutes when it’s dry, it’s time to print the photo of us on my nail. I had to put my thumb into the machine.

I wonder if it hurts.

And after one minute or so, it’s done!

TADA~ HOW COOL IS THAT! ;D The whole process takes about 15 minutes. for just one nail!!! and very unlucky for me, the girl had to do my nail twice because she smudged it the first time. so i had to wait quite long.

We only did one nail, because just one nail like that cost RM4!! kinda expensive but i think it’s worth, i mean it’s not just any designs but it’s a picture of us =) though i know there’s other places like one jaya that do manicures only for RM10! but oh well. maybe I'll go there for my manicure for CNY.

OHH and i finally ate this. whatever it’s called. I'm not good with remember food names.

chocolate chip flavour. yum =)

After walking around not knowing what to do, we went to Secret Recipe for the cheesecake. Some other food.

two cheesecakes. cappuccino cheese and oreo cheese =) eating so much in one day i think i just gained another 2kg =’(

20/12/10 – Damai beach part 2

2010-12-23T04:18:00.001+10:00

Lesson to learn – never try to stay up all night thinking you can go on without sleeping because it never works and you always end up falling asleep.

Example : Me.

So that night, we were all planning not to sleep. But everyone gave up and stopped fighting at 4.30am in the morning and went to sleep.

Next morning, even though i slept in but i felt like a dead person, walking like a zombie, well maybe I'm exaggerating a lil bit but you get what i mean. Still, i didn’t want to miss out the lovely beach scenery, i just had to take more photos after breakfast.

OH and check this out. there’s English, BM, Chinese, and erm KOREAN?

we checked out at noon time. glad we went a day earlier because it was so hot on the day we left. lucky i didn’t get a sunburn.

A LOT of luggage, it was like moving houses. poor dude. he had trouble trying to pull this thing to the lobby place.

it was nice to come to the beach again. to feel the sand, walking on the beach and feeling the sea breeze, even though after coming back from the beach i feel like i look darker.

there were actually lots more photos that we took that i have, but I just don’t have the time to sort everything out. photos are really precious, like some of those that shouldn’t be published, only to be kept for personal use.

i can get used to taking photos all day. maybe a photographer as my career would be nice ;)

19.12.10 Damai beach part 1

2010-12-23T03:55:00.001+10:00

The day has finally arrived!! I went to Damai ;D well some of you might not know, Damai beach is about one hour drive from where i stay and it’s like driving from Brisbane to Gold coast beach. very similar.

So i was lucky i could follow my friend Cynthia and her family to go there, 8 people sitting in a car with four of us squeezing at the back. it was somewhat fun, squeezy but nothing matters when you’re with friends. ;)

In the middle of the road trip, we stopped at the petrol station to pump petrol. and guess what we saw.

SANTA CLAUS!! the guy was helping us to pump the petrol wearing a beard a Christmas hat and shell T-shirt. it was epic.

okay so once we got there, immediately we went to the beach to take photos.

May Hui and I

left to right : Me, May Hui, Cynthia and May Sian

the jumpshot. successfully taken after several attempts. ;D

the cute version of da bian aka poo drawn by May Sian.

the waves are big and scary maybe because it’s year end, so we only soaked our feet in the water, but didn’t get to go deeper into the sea to feel the waves.

Good thing about going with families is that they’re always so well prepared. we didn’t have to buy any food, because they brought their own steamboat cooker, i don’t know what you call it, but that’s what i would call it. and they brought raw prawn, fish balls and we had our own steamboat in our hotel room for dinner. how nice =)

So Cynthia’s parents booked two big and spacious hotel rooms connected together and a balcony. one play room and another one was for sleeping. having the balcony was nice because you don’t have to exit via the front door, you can just go out to the beach by the side door. especially at night, it was nice looking at the view.

unless if you’re not alone.

17/12/10 – It’s winter in Kuching

2010-12-18T04:42:00.001+10:00

SO after the sleepover yesterday night, i had no plans whatsoever for the whole afternoon today. I lazed around in my grandma’s house watching shows and then took a nap because i couldn’t stand the weather in the afternoon. Damn humid weather was killing me but good thing we have air-cons here.

I waited until night time for my mum’s friend Aunt Florence to come take me out. She called for a meet up yesterday and i happily said okay. She said she would take me out for dinner and go for a walk. =)

She finally came at 8pm and brought me to Boulevard for dinner. It was my first time setting foot at Boulevard since i got back to Kuching and well nothing has changed much but it’s definitely getting more crowded there. Everyone is out to shop for new year’s stuff! Of course the Christmas decorations there were also really pretty.

I think if i were still living here i wouldn’t be this excited to see nice Christmas decorations, let alone take pictures of it, but now I'm coming here as a tourist! I am one and I feel like one! =D

This is a huge Christmas bell. guess what, it’s made out of empty water bottles. HOW AWESOME IS THAT. People are just so creative these days.

We left the place at around 9.30pm to go home but it was halfway when Aunt Florence said she wanted to bring me to the riverside to see the scenery, considering I'm a tourist now! LOL Kuching’s riverside. 14 years of living here and i never took a picture at the riverside. until now. She actually parked her car there and went down to help me take photos! awwww.

And also, the Cat statue, that represents our city, Kuching, which means Cat in english =)

The costume the cat is wearing changes every time according to the season. since it’s Christmas, the cat is dressed up for Christmas! spot the red pointy hat on the cat’s head! =)

Then we saw the X pax Christmas decorations at my primary school and she told me tonight is the first night they’re opening the place for public. Aunt Florence was excited and said let’s go and take photos! and then drove there and helped me take photos for me.

She helped me take photos of me with this blue huge Christmas tree. Until we went to the back and saw this covered building called “Winter Wonderland” with a ticket boot in front, stating “RM5 per entry”. Without me saying anything, Aunt Florence said “come on let’s go inside!”

It was called “ Winter Wonderland”. It felt like winter in there. They put extra air-cons in there to make it cold, it even looked like winter in there. The snow-men are SOOOO CUTE!!!! There wasn’t much to see, but a lot of photos to take. I LOVE ALL THESE PHOTOS!!! sooo nice! i wished i have a better camera though. =(

This photo of Aunt Florence and I was taken by some stranger. thanks for him i at least got a picture of us together. =)

Having Aunt Florence for being my photographer, she helped me take quite a lot of photos. But after taking around 15 shots, my camera’s battery went low and starting blinking and i know it wouldn’t last long anymore. GRRRRRRR i thought i charged it already the other day WHY IS IT RUNNING OUT OF BATT AT THIS TIME? i wanted to scream because in the end it won’t start anymore so i couldn’t take anymore photos.

Until then, it was 11pm already! I was like shoot. it’s so late already. And i found out later that Aunt Florence is not a late person, she sleeps early, and i feel bad letting her take me there until so late when we were supposed to go back after we went to Boulevard. >.< somehow i kinda feel that i should’ve said no to her when we were about to go into “ Winter Wonderland”, it starts today and ends on the 2nd of January next year. i still have heaps of time to go there again. ooopppsieee.

Though, at the end of the day, minus the feeling bad about letting Aunt Florence take me out until so late, i had a lot of fun, i felt like a little kid again, having that excitement when i was a kid when opening my Christmas present. I feel the Christmas mood, smiling so broadly when i see those decorations, enjoying every moment of it, though i just wished my family was here with me.

I had a lot of fun tonight, just this 3 hours of fun made my day. All thanks to Aunt Florence, for being sooo uber nice to take me out and be my driver to drive me around to look at the scenery. And also treating me for dinner and taking me to the “Winter Wonderland”. Wouldn’t have had so much fun without her. thank you so much. =)

16/12/10 – I watched Rapunzel again

2010-12-18T04:16:00.001+10:00

Call me a spendrift, say I’m wasteful, spending money on movie tickets, on the same movie, WHATEVER. but i think it was worth it. Rapunzel is the best movie i’ve seen so far this year!!

Oh no wait, that’s harry potter, but okay okay, harry potter is first and Rapunzel comes second!! it’s an animated movie but there’s scenes in the movie that is sooo beautiful, especially the lantern scene, if you’ve seen it you’ll know what i mean when i say the lantern scene, it was spectacular. <3 OMG AND can i say that the soundtracks in the movie is AWESOME x5416814658?? I’ll definitely go hunt for the movie soundtrack album and download it.

Of course i didn’t waste my time just watching the same movie again, i actually went to meet up with a classmate. The place to go, is again, non other than The Spring. MBO cinemas. this time i actually made an effort to take pictures. =)

So i met up with Camellia. it was funny because she started asking funny questions like, do they have “pao” in Australia? do they have motorbikes there? THAT kinda funny question. So what i did was tell her that, we actually have a lot more things than she expected in Australia. funny conversation.

But it was nice, meeting up with someone you haven’t seen for two years. After that at night, i called out two of my old classmates from high school to meet up as well. I was lucky because they were free and willing to come out to meet up.

So i met up with Yun Yee and Sing Ying. we had dinner at Singapore Chicken rice. i ordered myself salad chicken rice. YUM.

Had a bit of a chat. catch up. listened to the gossips again. and it came to the time when they asked if i think they changed, honestly i think no, pretty much everyone is still the same.

Then i asked them if they think i changed? they gave me an answer which i don’t expect at all. it was funny how they think i look thinner?? i mean W.O.W thinner?? that was surprising. and some say I’m more mature. which, i think is true. though i wanna look younger, not like some 20 year old adult.

And it was time for goodbye again because it was getting late, and then i had my sleepover at Kah Sing’s. Good thing about sleepover is, i get to sleep at anytime i want, even if it’s sleeping at 3am in the morning after chatting, i also get to sleep in until 12pm the next day.

I’m not even here for a month yet, already I’m missing my bed, my room at home, in Australia. but hey i have to get used to it here since I’m going to be here for the next two months, can’t start complaining now.

15/12/10 – only place left to hang out – The Spring

2010-12-16T01:10:00.001+10:00

I’ve been waking up pretty late these few days, about 9am to 10am? And my grandma always buys food for me in the morning for my breakfast. I really miss Kuching’s Kolo mee. and my grandma bought me kolo mee this morning and pok pia. =)

She told me the kolo me was only RM2.70. that’s not even one aussie dollar!! that’s realllly cheap.

After breakfast, i was lucky enough that Aunt could take me out and drop me off at The Spring this afternoon to meet up with my primary school classmate, Eileen. While waiting for her, i walked around the place and saw the huge Christmas tree decorated with golden stars. it was beautiful.

What makes it special is that each and every golden star represents a person’s wish or blessing. like the one i saw that starts with “Dear santa”. there must be a thousand of those golden stars on this Christmas tree. i smiled looking at it.

Well then my friend got there and we just walked around and went into stores we wanted to go to. I gotta say, i had a great time, even though we were just walking around the place, just chatting and talking. it was great catch up.

I saw quite a few people today, i guess it’s because the only hang out place left in Kuching is The Spring. i saw two people from my church in Australia hanging out in this shopping mall. i was really really very surprised. but no pictures of them oh well =) i even saw few of my old classmates from primary school. they looked so different i couldn’t even recognize them, for the guys esp. >.<

We went down to the food court and had a drink with my friend Nelson and chatted for a bit. After that i got a lift from Eileen and went back home. As usual, for dinner, i went out with my grandpa, i tried to take pictures with my Aunt and cousins, they all hide from the camera for some reason but at least i got one picture with my grandpa.

OH and i finally booked tickets to KL again. during january, i don’t want to rot in Kuching. =D this time with both of my grandparents going with me. they were happy, really happy when they knew that they could go. i was in charge of booking the tickets for them, it wasn’t easy, grrrr but it’s all done now. so all good. =)

14/12/10 – Some things just don’t change =)

2010-12-15T21:11:00.001+10:00

It’s true, some things just don’t change, for example, girls just love to gossip. ;D

i was really lucky i got the chance to meet up and have dinner with my form 1 & 2 classmates, thanks for the organisers, Denise, Xiang Ni and Anlia.

It was a simple dinner at a restaurant at Crown Square, the dishes were nice but of course that’s not what i was there for. i was glad i could meet some of them before they go off for their holidays. there were all girls, well since i don’t have much guy friends anyway, and sitting there i felt like I'm back to two years ago in Kuching High. =)

I pretty much listened to all their chatters and they filled me in with all the latest gossips and updates. i must say, there’s a lot to take in and digest, but some things are still the same, no one looked different, i think maybe just me cause i look much fatter, and they’re all still, themselves, in a good way =)

I don’t look good in this picture but at least it’s a group photo!!! ;D group photos are precious i tell you. =)

From left to right, the first row – Suki, Anlia, Denise & Wei Wei Second row - Xiang Ni, Kher San, May Hui and yours truly

i don’t know when will be the next time i see them again, even though I'm gonna be here till February but gatherings like these are hard to organise. So just gotta go with the flow =)

13/12/10 – I went to visit my babysitter ;)

2010-12-15T01:26:00.001+10:00

I had no plans whatsoever for this whole day and so i thought, hey why not go visit my babysitter? the one who looked after me since i was a baby, until i was 9 or 10. she saw me grew up and i reckon she felt like my second mother.

i even remembered once when i only learnt how to talk, i called my babysitter “Ma”, and was corrected by my dad who was beside me, telling me no call her Lao Ee, she’s not your mother. i was so young then, but i don’t know why because i still remember this vividly, since then, i started calling her Lao Ee.

I got a lift from my Aunt, my mother’s younger brother’s wife, which i call her Soi King, to my babysitter’s house. And once i got down the car, i saw three little kids standing by the door, looking at me eagerly. and i saw my babysitter, last time i’ve seen her was two years ago. and now, well, nothing has changed about her, but i guess i should say she looks happier, very “Xin Fu” they called it in Chinese.

She has a grandson now. 14 months old. called Lucas. ;D and he is sooooo damn cute!!! with watery big eyes and chubby face. but he is very afraid of strangers. only after one minute he saw me, he cried and cried and cried because he was not used to seeing strangers. but my babysitter calmed him down with whatever tricks she has and he stopped crying.

For the two other kids, i later found out that they were other people’s kids and my babysitter was just, you know, babysitting them.

The little boy is five and the girl is four. and i really doubt what the kids here learn in kindergarden, because hearing from my babysitter, she told me that them both still don’t know how to write A-Z or count 1 to 10. that’s just bad. that’s VERY bad. but who am i to say, they’re other people’s children.

awww. look at how cute Lucas is. he knows how to walk already!! ;D i guess seeing kids like them made my day. they have a mind of their own but they have no frustration and no worries at all.

it reminds me of how i was when i was a baby. though i don’t remember it. but still. you know what i mean.

11/12/10 & 12/12/10 – first meet up with girlfriends

2010-12-14T01:43:00.001+10:00

So we decided to meet up at The Spring, the only decent place for a meet up i guess. First thing that came to my mind was, wow, it looks beautiful here. and it really is, the Christmas decorations is stunning. lights everywhere. i felt like i was a tourist there even though I’ve been there a thousand times. I couldn’t resist more but to take pictures with the Christmas tree with my friend’s new Canon G12 power shot camera.

looking at the quality of the picture from Canon G12. i quickly hide my camera.

Then we went to Kim Bay. for erm dim sum? I love this picture because it looks like I’m helping Kim Bay to advertise their delicious food. ;D

To kill time, we went for movies and watched Narnia 3. it was my first time stepping into MBO cinema since The Spring was opened, i wasn’t here when MBO was opened but anyways, the cinema was awesome x354265426.

I guess the movie Narnia was just alright. the beginning was SOOOO boring i had to pinch myself not to fall asleep. Then finally, when everyone was here, we decided to go to The Junk for dinner. and yay, this was our romantic group photo. ;D

Dinner was filling and no one could finish the last slice of pizza, they tried to play with food, the tomato sauce. tell me what you think of when you see this blob of tomato sauce?

well i think it looks like the face of a cow. but it’s meant to be an octopus. which you’ll see if you turn this picture upside down.

All the drinks we ordered. See how the drinks are all lined up. We put them in order so it looks tidy to take a picture with. how funny. LOL.

So anyways, after the dinner, i had a sleepover at a friend’s. it was my first sleepover at a friend’s since i came back here, we didn’t do the sleepover must-do’s, we ended up watching the first Narnia movie and i dozed off in the middle of the movie.=P

So the next day we went to Ren Jian Cha Fang for lunch, called Life Cafe in english.

and i ordered myself noodles. ;D

After that we just went walking around the new shopping centre called One Jaya. At the end of the day, i was tired and feeling drossy from the late night sleep the day before. I gotta say, those two days were unforgettable especially the second day but all is good and a big thank you to those who took time out to hang out with me ;D It was the most craziest two days ever.

9/12/10 Welcome back to Kuching Hannah

2010-12-10T13:29:00.001+10:00

I was wrong when i said taking the plane alone is not hard. it is.

So this morning was the last time i spent my time with my friend Michelle and her family, her cousins too. Michelle’s aunt brought us to an Indian restaurant for breakfast and sadly as a Malaysian i hardly eat Indian food. All i know is roti canai. But today i ate something really special, well i think it’s special.

This was so big! i just had to take a picture of it. i still couldn’t remember exactly what this is called even though my friend reminded me at least three times. it’s paper something? but it’s crispy and taste salty. if you eat with the sauce it’s nice. though i recommend if you wanna eat it, you order one and share it with few other people. i had problem trying to finish eating this thing all by myself.

Then Aunt Carol brought me to Subang Jaya shopping mall. It was the last shopping mall I went before I left KL. Before i left the house i didn’t forget to take a picture. ;D

since i bought something for Michelle’s cousins, i thought i should get something for Michelle’s brothers and sister too. i told her lil brother and sister that I’ll get them whatever they want.

as little kids, as excited as they were, once they got into MPH, they dashed to the character stories section and started choosing their books. seeing them so excited made me glad that i could give them something as a farewell gift.

apparently it’s like a childhood series story book called Geronimo Stilton, I’ve never heard of it, never read it but flipping through the book, i could understand why the kids liked it. it was full of cartoons, colours, interesting quiz and there’s one book that teaches you how to tie a taekwondo belt!

So it was time for farewell. Aunt Carol drove me to the airport for one hour and a half, my flight was 5pm and i expected myself to be there at around 3pm, to be on the safe side. i ended getting there 10 minutes to 4pm, i was panicking. even in the car, i keep praying that i don’t miss my flight and that my luggage won’t go over 20kg.

i guess God made miracles, when i got to the airport, as panicky as i was, i quickly went to the counter and checked in my bag. there was NO ONE at the counter, i didn’t had to queue up. And my baggage was only 13kg. I got my boarding pass and i asked the man “pergi mana?” (where should i go) , he said “oh gate p tiga, (gate P3) , sekarang ah.” (now). i was thinking shoot I'm so late no one is here checking in anymore the man told me to go now i must go NOW NOW NOW.

i walked like the speed of thunder and went to the gate, got everything in, and i was so panicky i remember i was shivering all over. Michelle dropped me off, and got down with me while her mum went to find a parking space. But after i checked in my baggage i couldn’t find her anymore, i went straight into the departure hall. And there, only i realized, i didn’t say a proper goodbye. i didn’t give them a hug. i didn’t because i was so scared and rushing to go into the departure hall. =( i never only reach the airport one hour before my flight. i always have TIME to wait. chill out.

but I’ll miss the time we spent together. even if it was only 9 days. it was the most memorable 9 days. this is one experience I'll never ever forget.

So the plane journey was alright, SOOO much better than the 8 hours from Brisbane to KL. it was only one hour and 45 minutes from KL to KCH. and God did take good care of me, i didn’t book a seat and they gave me a middle seat, i was lucky because two other Chinese girls were sitting on my left and right. imagine if a guy or some pervert was seating beside, i wouldn’t feel safe and comfortable AT ALL.

OH and there was a pervert. in the airport, while waiting to board the plane. maybe i shouldn’t call him a perv, but he’s in his 40s, and travelling alone too like me, a Chinese, standing in front of me in the line, he kept turning around to look at me. more than 15 times i even counted! every time he stared i stared too, and he doesn’t say anything and turn back again. after that he turned around and stared again. He freaked me out! why do you keep staring?? AT LEAST SAY SOMETHING.

my mum told me she thinks the guy probably thought I was my mother, since we do look alike, I’m just like a younger version of my mum. BUT HEY. CAN YOU AT LEAST OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND SAY SOMETHING? he didn’t even smiled! if he thinks i looked familiar, why not ASK??? geez people should really stop staring.

So my friend Cynthia and her family went to the airport to pick me up and brought me for dinner. ;D

Being with her family feels different, because they all speak pure hokkien, and i was rusty at it. i had to think before i say, which is VERY BAD. but I'm determined to polish up my teochew and hokkien in this two months.

I’m safe and sound in Kuching. nothing has changed, well maybe a bit, they are new to me but apparently they have been there for quite a while already.

it feels good to be back.

8/12/10 i finally watched Rapunzel aka Tangled. ;D

2010-12-10T02:28:00.001+10:00

This afternoon, I went to iOi mall together with Michelle and her family to watch the movie Rapunzel. The cinema wasn’t as big but it wasn’t crappy so yay.

movie ticket for adults is only RM7! how cheap is that! it’s only RM5 for children. i guess the theatre was just average but the movie was the best animated movie I’ve seen this year. no kidding. It’s even better than “How to train your dragon”.

Rapunzel is a children fairy tale story i heard? But honestly, I’ve never heard of this story before in my childhood years, how sad. Anyways, i don’t want to be a movie spoiler. A definite must-watch movie!

After the movie we went for a walk around the mall, i told myself not to spend anymore but i couldn’t resist it. it’s my last day, i SHOULD be getting something! =P =P

these are the small gifts for Michelle’s three cousins. AREN’T THEY CUTE??? ;D

I didn’t spent much, only bought three tops in a store called Brands outlets. they sell nice graphics tees for girls, buy three for only RM50. which is cheap. ;D

And the thing about KL is that, they have weird names for restaurants. like today we ate at a restaurant called Next stop, which came from the Taiwanese drama called Next station. it’s cool but erm, can you guys be more creative? i’m just saying.

I ordered butter chicken rice and it was damn salty. saltiest thing I’ve ever tasted in my life. my taste buds were messed up by the saltiness. We ordered four plates of the butter chicken rice but it’s so salty Aunt Carol made a complaint and got a free cha kiew tiao.

Then we went to Jusco while waiting for someone else to come and we ended up in the toys section. and i saw this. i don’t know what they are called but they’re sooooo friggin cute! the head bobs around ;D though you can’t tell from the picture.

I wanted to take a picture with this huge bear that cost a hundred ringgit but FAIL. i couldn’t even hold the bear straight up properly. so much for taking pictures. nice try hannah.

and then we went home. so today was my last day in KL. because I’m leaving for Kuching tomorrow. i seriously will miss this place. the shopping malls but that’s not the most important thing.

I'll miss everyone I’ve met here, the time spent with the new people i just met. with my friend and her family and relatives. it’s a very different experience, being far away from my family and travelling alone, it’s not the same, whatever you face you have to deal with it yourself, and i learnt a lot from just these eight days staying here with other people. I’ll never forget this experience. My first time being away from family for so long and flying on a plane by myself tomorrow! still, I’m really really glad i could experience this myself and also having my family in Australia supporting me all the while i was here.

Who knows what would happen tomorrow at the airport. I just gotta believe that I’m not alone because God is with me everywhere i go and he’ll guide me all the way back to Kuching safely.

i know that i have my family praying for me and God is with me so..

7/12/10 – get active anti-shopping day

2010-12-08T14:15:00.001+10:00

So today, we really didn’t go out. We didn’t even set foot into a shopping mall or market or whatever. I mean today was a no shopping day. i seriously didn’t spend a single cent at all.

We all ended up just staying at home for the whole morning and afternoon. And then i watched the movie Pride and Prejudice with Michelle and her cousin. Pride & Prejudice is a typical romance movie and i like it. ;D

Then we started watching “The Triangle”, which is the Bermuda triangle movie and it’s in a lot of parts, we watched the first three parts and I've never heard of this movie before, i must say it’s like a thriller movie, but not horror, it just gives you suspense. People said weird things happened in the Bermuda triangle, like people disappearing passing through that place, and i don’t know if it’s true, but it sure is a mystery. read more about it here.

Then everyone decided they want to get active, so Michelle’s Aunt took us to the park. the park was HUGE. sad that we could only stay for less than 30 minutes. because we had somewhere else to go. i ended up only playing 2 minutes of badminton and then went for a walk. there were a lot of people jogging and it’s a nice place for doing exercise. i really don’t remember the last time i exercised. i mean, just look at my size now, you can tell that i don’t exercise. =P

i really don’t understand someone would build this tent building thing and not build benches for people to sit? i mean what’s the point?

nice landscape. i was on the hill. looking down at the big lake. nice ;D

and can i just say, just only walking, i was already sweating like crazy. i remember walking everyday in Australia and i didn’t sweat so much like i did today. it felt nice though.

Then, Aunt Carol brought us to another random restaurant for dinner because it’s one of Michelle’s Aunt’s birthday tomorrow. ;D

Two chocolate cakes on the table for the Aunt in the pink top and another one for the uncle beside her. They were celebrating their birthdays together ;D i didn’t take pictures of the food though, it’s just typical Asian food which i don’t find amusing.

I’m sorry i can’t be bothered to introduce everyone here. but this picture is very precise because everyone is in it, the people I've met so far. it’s hard to get pictures of other people. i mean i don’t normally say “excuse me, can i have a picture with you?” to people i just met for 7 days. I’m sorry but i just can’t do it.

OH AND. Tomorrow is my last day here in KL. leaving here go to to KCH for two months. i hope i don’t die of boredom there, which i think i will. but anyways, i went through the pictures i took so far, i really don’t have much. =(

you know what, i think i should hire a photographer. someone to take pictures for me. pictures of me. because seriously, not everyone is willing to help you take pictures of you when you ask them to, which kills my spirit to ask people to take pictures for me again.

6/12/10 - Welcome to T-bowl

2010-12-07T12:02:00.001+10:00

So today, Michelle and I went shopping again at Sunway. The last time i went i didn’t take any pictures. This time i told myself i must at least take some pictures! so i did. this time I’m going to let the pictures do the talking and write less.

there’s a grand piano out of no where on my left. i wonder what would the security guard think if i went to play the piano?

Like i said before, Sunway is awesome x454581258. A shopping paradise. A girl loves to shop and I’m one of them ;D

This is the so called Asian place, called Asian Avenue. (i like this picture just hate the obvious scar on my left leg)

Then we had lunch at the coolest restaurant ever. it’s called T-bowl, stands for Toilet-bowl concept restaurant.

see why it’s called T-bowl now? even the seats are toilet bowl! and there are see-through glass tables with a basin underneath. HOW COOL IS THAT?

They even put a real toothbrush on the menu!! LMAO. so i ordered a set meal. with a main course + a drink + a dessert + a soup. There are a few options for the set meals, i ended up ordering a cheese baked chicken and rice for main course, a hot milk tea for my drink, chocolate ice-cream and mushroom soup. All for only RM16.90. which is quite cheap. ;D

my mushroom soup came in a yellow colour bath tub, and my milk tea cup looked like the shape of a basin or a toilet bowl I’m not exactly sure.

So this is the set meal. the cheese baked chicken and rice with mushroom soup and my milk tea. even the plates look like the shape of the toilet seat. LMAO. so, waiting for the desert now!

IT LOOKS LIKE POO DOESN’T IT! and it came in a toilet bowl too! but the ice-cream was yummy. it’s just that after i ate everything i felt so bloated full.

we were sitting on toilet seat while eating our meals too! and it’s a real toilet seat, no kidding. from a scale of 1 to 10, i rank this place a 10/10. because i love the toilet bowl concept! the food though on the other hand is just like any other restaurant, which i give a 7/10.

if you ever go to Sunway, YOU MUST GO TO T-BOWL.

So after that we went to popular book store to kill time and i saw this really good book that tells us to be thankful for everyday and everything. the trick is to put a coin in your pocket and each time you reach into your pocket and touch the coin, think of one thing to be thankful for. the coin can be replaced with another things too, like your wallet or something, i just find this really cool, be thankful for everything ;D

oh and before i end this post, look what i found outside the toilets in Sunway.

never worry about low-battery cell phones now because you can always charge it at Sunway. have i not mention how awesome this place is?

4/12/10 - this is why KL people are so lucky

2010-12-05T13:36:00.001+10:00

this morning my friend’s aunt brought us to eat dim sum for breakfast. i didn’t really eat much because there are all seafood. but the food is nice. the place is called Axian Dim Sum instead of Asian.

this is the inside of the restaurant.

There were altogether more than 10 people. I’m not exactly sure because i didn’t do a head count, but we had five tables joined together. because my friend has lots of aunties with their husband and children. it was somewhat like a family gathering for them.

left to right. Me, Rachel (my friend Michelle’s younger sister), one of Michelle’s Aunt and her daughter. so right now I’m staying at this aunt’s house. ;D

So next my friend and I, with her brother and two other cousins. five of us went to Pavilion. This place is where all the rich people shop, all the branded shops, Gucci, LV, everything you name it, and it’s very beautiful now since it’s almost Christmas.

AND AND AND. now the main reason why we were there since we couldn’t afford to shop at that glamorous place was because we were there to see a celebrity!

WHO? he’s non other than KIM HYUN JOONG! *SCREAMS*!!!!! if you didn’t go *gasp* when you see the name, he is also well known as the main character in the drama kiss in the Korean version. he also starred in the Korean drama called Boys over Flowers, if you don’t know then i suggest you GOOGLE IT!

we only got quite late and we waited there for him in the crowd, squeezing here and there since 4.00pm. i mean just look at the crowd!!! we should’ve gotten there earlier so we can stand at the front!

and finally at 5pm he came! in a maroon car. sorry for the blur picture. because i was so far away i had to zoom in with my camera. the crowd went ballistic immediately.

when he got on the stage. everyone went crazy snapping pictures of him. including me. i went crazy and started snapping like a hundred pictures of him. even though most of them are not clear because the crowd was pushing me here and there.

and because of the crowd, i had to tiptop to see his face so that’s all i can see. i had to hold my camera all the way up so i can take a picture of him. pictures and real life person is so different. and take it from me. he’s way hotter in real life than in pictures! *screams*

he spoke in Korean. and the lady with the blue skirt was his translator. ;D ;D he didn’t say much, and the rest of the time was him signing autographs for 200 lucky winners. i didn’t get to see him up close and personal. =(

SO YES. I SAW KIM HYUN JOONG. I SAW HIM FROM FAR WITH MY OWN EYES. A CELEBRITY. AND A VERY HOT ONE. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. A KOREAN CELEBRITY!!!!!!!

that is why i say KL people are so lucky. they always get to see celebrities and get autographs and shake their hand!! how come i never get to shake hands with a celeb? =(

i wonder what he honestly thinks about Malaysia. i bet he’s probably complaining to his manager that he wants to go back to Korean now because of this humid and hot weather here. i wonder which hotel he’s staying at right now…

i love the shopping malls here!

2010-12-03T19:39:00.001+10:00

the third day i’m here in malaysia. i’ve gotta say, weather is still hot but i’m quite used to it already. and i haven’t spoken to my parents for three days already! travelling by yourself is fun but i miss travelling with my family.

at the airport. a very nice Malaysian guy took this for us.

so okay i went shopping for the past two days and it’s AWESOME here. you can find anything here. you can buy anything here. it’s also freaking cheap! if you convert RM to AU dollars. but still! i’m having the time of my life shopping here! even though i can’t find things i want and i think i spent way tooo much already in just two days!

yesterday we went to sunway. which is a HUGE HUGE HUGE shopping mall. we had to look at the directory for more than 10 times to know where we’re going. no kidding!

looking at what i spent now. cosmetics are the most costly ones. but i need them because i couldn’t bring any liquid through in my hand carry luggage. so far i’m enjoying myself shopping here! even though when i get home and think about it, i feel guilty for spending so much. i actually still have alot of things to be bought. because this is KL! i bet my hometown kuching doesn’t have all the things they have in KL. like what my mum told me, once you see anything you like just buy it! ;D

all the cosmetics i bought. it’s actually so much cheaper than the ones in Australia.

OH AND the food is sooo nice. i ordered a wan tan mee for breakfast yesteday morning ;D though there are all served in small potion. but it’s enough for me. it means i get hungry easier and get thinner.

OOOOH and my mum had been telling me to get my ears pierced since i was young but i didn’t want to because i know it hurts. but yesterday my friend wanted to get one so i got my ears pierced tooo! she told me it doesn’t hurt, which was a LIE. because it did hurt!! i was so scared i didn’t wanna do it anymore at the last minute but the lady who was doing my piercing told me it’s okay it’ll just hurt for a while. she was sooo nice and friendly she even calm me down by joking with me. ;D

but i didn’t regret doing it because now i can finally buy earrings for myself ;D

this is the room i’m sleeping in now. very spacious. i totally forgot how big the rooms are in Malaysia already. i wished i could online more often but wifi here is limited and not always turned on at the place i’m staying at. but all is good. ;D

the view from the room.

i bought myself a digi number already!! still loyal to digi.

this is one of the booklet the man gave me when i bought my sim card. and i turned to the back i see all BM. why no English?? and WTHECK DOES LAZIM MEAN??

5 differences between Australia & Malaysia

2010-12-03T00:32:00.001+10:00

i’m finally back in malaysia! my first day back in Malaysia. not in kuching but i’m staying in KL for 8 days. first thing i thought to myself when i got down the plane, “omigosh it’s so freaking hot”. i felt the humidness, the stickiness and the heat immediately.

this is the first time ever I've been away from my family to go overseas myself, with a friend. the next time I'll see my family is after one month. the responsibility of taking care of myself and important belongings, and travelling with family and with a friend is very different in a lot of ways.

I’ve been staying in Australia for almost two years already, immediately i feel the difference between the two countries Australia and Malaysia.

1. The first thing is obviously the weather. the air is always hot here. you take a shower and immediately you sweat again. it’s even worse than summer in Australia. at least Australia it’s not that humid. i hate the stickiness. but luckily we have air-con here. and the place I’m staying at is awesome, it’s a three-storey house.

2. erm I forgot my BM??? everyone here speak BM. EVERYWHERE is BM. even the sign boards. took me what felt like 10 minutes to read a sign. what happened to English being the international language? I talk to them in English they reply me in BM. WHY?? and seriously when they say it fast i don’t get a word they say. sounded like they’re speaking in another alien language. *this is very bad i know, i must relearn my BM again.*

3. Difficulties in communication - Yesterday even on the plane, i had trouble trying to communicate with the air stewardess. She was speaking the Malaysian english and i was speaking with the Aussie accent. She looked at me like I'm retarded and i looked at her like she’s crazy. So i decided to let my friend’s mom do the job. (speaking in BM solves everything)

4. The dirtiness – maybe because I'm in KL, but everywhere i go, I'll think to myself, ew this place is disgusting. it’s dirty it’s smelly it’s gross. which is true, because in Australia you can never find a “kopitiam” with what-looks-like-puke on the floor. everywhere i see, there’s rubbish and i don’t see that in Australia which makes me uncomfortable.

5. The toilets – Do i have to be very precise here? it’s obvious. but because i stayed in Australia for TOO LONG. i forgot that the toilets here require you to squat and if you’re unlucky you might not find any toilet paper! do i have to mention that the floors are wet and dirty which you can never find in Australia because even the public toilets in Australia are x6824354 cleaner than the ones here.

6. OH and. when you go to hawker store to eat lunch or anything, you order first and then when the food comes only you pay. and the food comes in like less than 1 minute? because in Australia, when you get a subway, you queue up for 10 minutes and you’re still not being served which is annoying. but here. it’s AWESOME. i don’t like waiting for my food.

that’s all i can think of right now. I'm in a hurry.

so stay tune for my next post. ;D

Christmas season is here!

2010-11-21T00:22:00.001+10:00

It’s almost December and yesterday my mum said we should put up the Christmas tree. ;) like every year, I’m usually the one to do it, putting up the decorations and lights. it’s like a tradition thing, every year when it comes to this time, there’s always this same Christmas tree we had for years (since i was born maybe) being put up and the SAME decorations put on the tree.

it has been many years, since i was young i remember putting up the Christmas tree every year and every year i always ask my mum the same question. “Mum, when are we going to buy new decorations for the tree?” and the answer i get every year is the same, “don’t need to buy lah, waste money only.”

Somehow this year was different, because i got fed up asking my mum the same question, and amazingly my mum bought new decorations (because they were on sale). incredibly awesome. ;D

i took many pictures of our Christmas tree and this is my favourite. <3

I know Christmas is still one month away, but everywhere i go, in shopping malls, i see Christmas-related-things being sold. I love this Christmas mood. Although i won’t be celebrating my Christmas here in Australia this year, i would certainly miss it. And, probably because i won’t be here, my mum thought she’d get me an early Christmas present. A new clarinet. !!!!

for those who don’t know, I’ve been renting a clarinet from school since last year. never thought of getting a new one. i must say, music instruments are expensive stuff. BUT STILL! having a new clarinet motivates me more to play better! ;D

that’s the box

and it’s made in Indonesia!

it’s a soft casing. they don’t sell the hard ones anymore. this one is so much lighter!!

the inside is a lot bigger. :)

came with a reed, cord grease and cloth!

I’ve tried playing it already, once. Well, it does sound a bit different from the old one i used to use. and i squeak a lot more often, so i need to get use to playing this one from now on.

It’s not even Christmas yet and I’m getting all these. does that mean i won’t be getting anything when Christmas time comes?

i wanna turn back time

2010-11-13T23:22:00.001+10:00

today was by far the worst experience i had as a performer. on stage, when crap happens, you just can’t do anything about it. it’s being professional. you can’t just go. “sorry ladies and gentlemen, my instrument broke, please wait and I'll go borrow one so i can perform for you guys”. it just doesn’t happen like that.

i don’t know why what happened tonight happened, but i just want to turn back time. tonight was my school’s annual music concert, all the bands get to perform. I’m in a band where I play the clarinet. and tonight, i got there, put my instrument together, and went up to perform. when the first song started, i blowed into my instrument, no sound came out. i freaked and panicked and kept trying but nothing came out. D:

i just wanted to cry because i had a duet part with a flute at the beginning and i couldn’t play at all, holding the instrument in my hands, blowing as hard as i can, but nothing came out. nothing. i panicked, throughout the first whole song i didn’t know what to do, i was pretending to be playing, thinking WHY THE HECK IS MY INSTRUMENT NOT PLAYING?!? you have no idea how that felt.

but the worst is coming. after the first song ended, i told my conductor my instrument won’t play, he checked, and told me my reed broke, that’s why it’s not playing, but i couldn’t change the reed because i don’t have it with me. WHY DIDN’T I CHECK BEFORE I WENT ON? we didn’t get the change to tune our instrument before we went to perform. thinking my conductor could fix my instrument, my heart sank, i wanted to cry when he handed back my instrument to me, shrug and said “there’s nothing i can do about it”.

there is really nothing anyone can do about it. we’re on stage, trying to perform the second song. i couldn’t play at all. i felt terrible. there were only three clarinet players playing the melody part, without me, there were only two. and me and this other girl beside me had a solo part in the second song, because i couldn’t play at all, and it was up to her to do her thing.

she did her best, even though there were mistakes and squeaks. i just feel so stupid and terrible, if only i could play, if only i checked before i went on stage, it was embarrassing! i had to pretend that I was playing so that i don’t look abnormal. people think i was actually playing and heard the squeaks, should i be happy about that?

when i know my reed broke and there’s no way i can play at all for the entire song, i had the urge to say to the girl beside me “PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR CLARINET SO I CAN PLAY!” i was about to cry..

the worst thing was letting the band down, because without the clarinet parts, the performance wasn’t great, it was horrible. everyone said that. i just can’t feel any better. can i also say that my conductor looked fierce and angry when he said there’s nothing he can do about it cause my reed broke? he wasn’t happy at all because that lil thing ruined the whole performance for the band. how can i not feel guilty?

i still feel bad about the whole performance, can’t we just do it again? such wishful thinking wouldn’t happen in a million years. people move on and don’t dwell on things like these, maybe in my dreams i can pretend that i did well in tonight’s performance.

the guilt won’t go away, this terrible feeling I’m having. can anyone understand?

The awards night

2010-11-10T22:57:00.001+10:00

guess what was sitting on my table when i got back home from school two days ago? my QUT free tee shirt! ;D ;D just by posting a change the world idea and 25 likes from facebook and you can get one too!

it’s a very cool tee.

okay i have been stressing a lot this term, on assignments and assessments. i have been wasting a lot of precious time too. it’s a very busy term, this term. the shortest term of the year, only 8 weeks? but everything is crammed into this 8 weeks and it feels like there’s no time at all.

BUT today i’m finally finished with my assessments for english for this year! did my oral and so i have no more assessments to do anymore for english! which is a huge relief. ;D but it also means i have two orals and three exams to go. ;( ;(

but anyways. a very quick update on what happened few weeks ago or recently.

it’s around this time of the year for people who has achieved outstanding results to be recognized or awarded with certificates in an event called the awards night, held by our school. whether it’s academic, sports or cultural awards.

I, being the lucky one, get to go to two of the awards night. one for academic and another one for cultural. and the cultural awards night was last week, where we don’t get to go there in our uniforms, because we have go to there in smart casual.

it has been a long time since i actually put on a decent dress for a particular occasion, for people who know me, you never get to see me wearing dresses. back then when i was young, my mom picked what i wear, and they were lil kiddies dresses. this time, i actually have to wear a dress. i wasn’t feeling very comfortable to be honest.

But everyone looked stunning that night, guys in ties and girls in dresses and heels. ;D though i did feel very insecure walking to the stage knowing all eyes are on you. very scary thought.

The night didn’t start off very well, but it ended well. because i received a trophy for most outstanding senior piano playing! no one knows who is going to get the award, so it was a big surprise for me and i was very happy. ;D even my parents showed up which they normally don’t.. ;D

nicely designed trophy personalized with my name on it. <3

just like how my brother put it, “finally getting an award for piano playing after 10 years!” :D

phobia

2010-10-31T00:46:00.000+10:00

i have a phobia
a phobia called
atelophobia.

i fear alot.
imperfection.
fear of not doing enough.
fear of not being good.
i cannot achieve what i want.
i let people down.
i hurt so many ppl whom i cared for.
i feel like the worst person on earth.

apple or blackberry

2010-10-24T16:45:00.001+10:00

i have a dilemma now.

this?

what i do when i’m bored

2010-09-27T21:46:00.002+10:00

i was so bored that i decided to mess around with my room a bit yesterday. i told my parents i wanted to change the layout of my room. With the help of my mom and dad, my room looks completely different now just by swapping my bed and bookshelf. so now when you first open the door you’ll see my bookshelf, instead of my bed where it used to be. which is good, because i don’t like it when people open the door and the first thing they see is me lying on my bed. doing who-knows-what.

so swapping my bookshelf and bed means i have to take everything down from the bookshelf, my books, plus more books, all my personal belongings and put them aside. also, taking down all the postcards i stuck on my wall. it took me longer than i thought to take everything down, i couldn’t find anywhere else to put it. so there goes my study table. it was so messy it took me 2 minutes to look for my itouch. it was hidden in there. somewhere.

so that was how my room looked like, (pic on the left) before i cleaned and tidied it up. just look at the empty bookshelf. pls ignore the messy table. (pic on the right) the whole stack of postcards i had to take down. and it took me another 15 minutes to stick them back up on the wall again.

before i went to bed last night, i sort of tidied up my room a little bit. took the stuff off my study table and put it back on the shelves. but i was too tired to put the books back up. just look at how many books i have! those were the books i kept from my childhood. i didn’t want to sell them or chuck them, because just looking at them reminds me of my childhood, the memories.

i think i spent more than an hour just rearranging everything back into place this afternoon. changing things a bit, putting everything nicely so it looks perfect and tada! i’m proud to say, job well done =)

i must say. this is such a productive way to spend my school holidays, rather than just sit in front of my laptop all day, chat facebook, whatever. i really don’t like doing that anymore now. i’m going back to my old self, the old i-don’t-online-that-much-and-i-read-every-night-before-i-sleep-self. but erm ahem i still watch drama. =P

but sigh. i was only just getting used to holidays, sleeping in and not worry about being woken up by the annoying alarm clock and now i look at the calendar and it tells me that i only have 6 more days of school holidays left. =(

looking forward to 6 of more productive days <3

oh yeah. i’m using windows live writer now. and it’s awesome! so much easier to blog. =)

my last holiday in australia

2010-09-22T00:52:00.002+10:00

okay my title sounds like i'm gonna die soon.
but no. i'm still alive.
not in severe sickness that i might pass away soon.
i'm perfectly fine.
just that. this is my last holiday i'll spend in australia. for this year. of course.
because. i'll be spending my the next school holidays in msia!! say YAY! wooots~~

how many days till i go back to msia. hmmm i'm not sure. i'm guessing.
around 80 days? around that. =D =D time flies.

anyways. i'm having school holidays for two weeks now.
honestly i have no plans for this whole entire two weeks.
just gonna be wasting time at home. lazing around the house.
probably gonna gain a few pounds again. damn.
i needa exercise. less butt sitting.
it's hard cuz i'm trying to watch all dramas that i missed out on.

i don't know if it's a good or bad thing that i'm sick right now.
blowing my nose every few mintues. sneezing every now and then.
coughing even when it hurts my throat so badly.
yea i'm that sick. let's hope it gets better tomoro. it better.

today i made my brother to take me to buy this book.
it's sophie kinsella's new book. the shopaholic series!!
i've read all the other shopaholic series and i just love it!!
i'm sure this one would be awesome too. <3
only started reading the first two chapters.
i'm gonna be quite occupied for the next few days.
doing some reading. =)

happy holidays guys.
and happy mooncake festival =)

another emo post

2010-09-16T21:24:00.002+10:00

i know you don't care anymore.
but can you pls, pls just slow down a bit.
and wait for me.
i can't seem to catch up with you.
i'm falling behind.
you're always too quick n fast.

maybe i should be moving on too.
forever is bullshit.
nth last forever right?

ain't that what you told me.
that you'll always be by my side.
but sorry is not an excuse.
you know that right?

it's on my mind everyday, every hour, every minute, every second.
whether i could forgive and forget this.
this pain i feel that is just so hard to fade.

i see you going further and further away from me every single day.
i feel the distance between us that i never felt before.
it's okay. give me time n i'll get over it. ;)

don't judge a book by its cover

2010-08-30T01:35:00.011+10:00

it's normal for people to judge someone that they just met,

by their looks, their appearance, the way they talk or act, what they say etc.

i do that too. it's hard not to.

although we shouldn't.

but the thing is, the outside doesn't mean anything.

i guess it happens to everyone.

what we see on the outside of a person.

is not always right.

we tend to have a wrong impression of a person just by judging a book by its cover.

time can help us see a person better n clearer.

because everyone, n i mean everyone, has a inner self that is hidden behind their outer self.

though they are some ppl who show their true self. but tat's just rare.

someone may appear to be happy to you every single day,

but that's just what you see on the outside.

if you really know them personally, put yourself in their shoes,

feel what they feel, live their life just for one day.

you'll know. it's the pain that they endure everyday that make them like that.

微笑只是掩饰心中的痛苦。

though it makes me sad sometimes to know that.

behind a smile. there's always tears, pain and hurt.

everyone has a different side of them that no one can see.

well if you care for someone, show it.

they will feel it. and appreciate it.

i wanna take this opportunity,

to say thank you to everyone that has been there for me.

through thick and thin.

you know who you are.

really. thank you.

i am a human too.

2010-08-21T01:16:00.003+10:00

we have feelings. we have emotions and we get hurt. duh.
because we are human.
have you ever wonder why these feelings and emotions exist?
sometimes i really wish they don't.
i wanna be immune to it for a while now.

anyways. enough of the emo crap.
juz a quick update on myself.
i'm starting to get busy now.
all the assignments due around the same time.

probably will leave this blog dead for a few weeks.
my apologies.

and.
last thing i wanna say.
i can see myself changing into a whole new different person.
whether i want it or not. i have to. because of the environment i'm in now.
i need someone. just to be there by my side.
whoever that may be.
i'll be satisfied.
confusing? i'm just too lonely okay.

at least this picture made me smile.

biggest dumb ass in the world

2010-08-14T00:08:00.006+10:00

today was by far one of the crappest day in my life.
i decided to take the bus to sch today, turned out that i left home a bit too late, and i was almost late to get on the bus to dreamworld.
i saw this guy going on the excursion as well in front of me, he looked at the time and he started running.
i was nervous like hell, i looked at the time, and i ran as well.

funny thing was, the guy was so fast, and he got on the bus when i was still like 100 metres away from the bus.
i saw no one at the volleyball courts, it means i was sooo freaking late already.
i was running for so long.
my legs felt like jelly then i fell down.
again.

but i stood right back up and continued runnnig.
reached the bus and the teacher asked. "wad happened to your jeans, hannah?" "got a dog bite on your jeans?"
he tried to crack a joke out of it. haha not funny sir.
i was HUH? wad's with my jeans?
i looked down, and saw this big hole in my jeans. and my leg was bleeding. it was a huge scratch alright.
i was fully tired from running, panting. and told the teacher i fell down, n i was alright.
but IT WAS EMBARRASING SHIT.

my friend saw me n looked at my jeans, she thought it was fashion!
so i'm going on an excursion. what do i do now with a ripped jeans and an fully bleeding injured leg?
FML!
lucky i got friend with plaster, i even need two of them. they weren't big enough alright.
and got safety pins from another friend, so i pinned my jeans.
i made it worked. n made it look like i did that to my jeans on purpose.

though i had to suffer the pain, just one tip, when you're trying to pin something to something near a wound, DONOTDOIT, or be extra careful, i donno how many times i poked myself with the pin when i was trying to pin my jeans.

aint it beautiful?

it hurts alright.

AND I THOUGHT JEANS WOULDN'T RIP!

AND dreamworld was so crappy i don wanna talk about it.
wasted $47 just to spend 4 hours of no fun time at dreamworld.
it's making me so very depressed to think about the assignment.
because i have no idea what we're doing!
where is that someone to help you when you feel so helpless tat you wanna cry but had to hold the tears back?

i told my mom it was all my fault tat i fell. my mom just went. "OF COURSE LA!"
ARGH! thanks for the comfort mom!
it aint funny at all.

helpless n no one to turn to.
i am not strong enough.
i can't rage, but i can cry.
injury hurts but my heart hurts more.

two days off

2010-08-11T13:00:00.000+10:00

this week has been a pretty relaxing week for me. but that's when i don think of the assignments that's going to be due soon.
i won't even consider this a school week. because it's not. for me.

i had one excursion on Monday for BOM (business organisation and management), where we went to Coca-cola factory and Woolworths, one of the largest supermarket. it wasn't that fun, but i was glad i had the chance to go, i've never been to places like those, and it was good experience, though honestly i didn't really enjoyed myself when i was there. we couldn't take pictures as well, not allowed to. =/

i have another excursion coming up. on Friday. =)
we're going to dreamworld. yes. the theme park.
it's for a physics assignment.
excursion means, you meet at school, get on the bus and off you go. no classes. no boring lessons that makes you fall asleep. yay~

yesterday was the only school day for me this week. and in all my classes, what i did was just sit in class and let the time pass. no point of goin to school at all.
but it was a friend's birthday. Happy birthday again, Emily =)

and today plus tomorrow. we have two days off. public holiday today and pupil's free day tomorrow.
double yay!

i'm not sure what i'll be doing to spend my two days off yet.
but i'm sure that most of the time, i will be watching my wife and kids.
i have all five seasons of it! thanks to my bro's friend.

and. of course.
doing my stupid freakin annoying assignments. =(

school open day

2010-08-08T23:56:00.004+10:00

yesterday was my school annual open day. yeap. annual should be the right word to use.
open day means everyone is welcome to enter our school.
but they're mainly for ppl who are interested in studying in our school in the future.
to see how our school is like. probably also to see how crappy our sch actually is.=/
like what subjects we have. what activities. what kind of students we are. etc.

i, being one of the lucky ones. was chosen to help out. in the chinese stall.
the LOTE section. LOTE aka language other than english.
with a couple of friends.

we got there super early in the morning. to help out. to grate carrots and cucumbers -.-
i'm not complaining.
but here's the thing. it's my first time helping out.
i have no idea what i'm up for.
our teacher left us with juz saying okay you're in charge of the peanut powders, you the eggs, you the cucumber, you the carrots, you the cabbage. and some other ppl with other jobs.

confused?
okay we were making SPRING ROLLS. for people.
i had a friend who was in charge of seperating the spring roll sheets. because in a packet, the sheets all stick together. she seperated 10 packets of spring rolls.
mind you. there are 50 sheets in one packet. job very well done.

but okay. you're probably even more confused now.
i'm about to explain.
we have a table. with bowls of the ingredients. and our jobs was to stand behind the table, and each person is in charge of a bowl. i was in charge of the eggs. so when a plate is passed down to me with spring roll sheets n peanut powder, i add some eggs to it, and pass it down. to the cucumber n carrot. and at the end of the table, there's someone to roll the spring rolls.

it was. fun i guess. but i regretted that we didn't manage to enjoy more than we could have.
i mean the thing was from 9.30am to 1pm. i stood there at the stall, serving who-knows-how-much eggs to ppl, for more than 3 hours straight. without sitting or resting. and i barely moved.
i didn't get to walk around and check out other ppl's stall.
and the whole time i was serving. wad. EGGS. -.-
we could have take turns, or take a rest, and come back to do our job.
yeap tat's what the teacher in charge told us, but, somehow, i was scared to leave other ppl behind doing more jobs when there's chaos while i'm relaxing.
by the end of the 3 hours, i had aching shoulders. sore knees. very sore feet.
all i wanted to do was to sit down and rest.

we even have name tags.
i know what you're thinking.
why does it say GERMAN underneath my name.
it's meant to be CHINESE. =D
oh well. i was meant to be helping out with german.
even though i'm not learning german,
in the end, there were enough ppl at the german stall.
so i helped out with chinese.

well. what can i say.
there's always first time for everything.
i did have fun. =) honestly.
and i'm so not doing the same job again next year.

i've got myself a camera!

2010-08-06T21:30:00.002+10:00

i know i've been wanting to get a camera of my own.

since. last year.

i forgot when exactly. n now i finally have it!

=D =D *screams*

well i bought it like weeks ago.

i was just too lazy to blog about it

anyway.

got some shots from my camera.

it's black. it's canon. the ixus 130.

it's slim. and tiny for a camera.

like a mobile phone.

that's why i <3 it. =)

and it was on sale.

it came in a box.

of course.

parents would kill me if they find out.

well my mom already knows it.

cuz i told her the other day.

i wasn't surprised at her reaction.

now it's only my dad. =/

but oh well.

i'm going back to malaysia. i need a camera.

a good one. n it's not like i can borrow the one my bro has.

so i have a very good excuse to get myself a camera xPP

i'm a big girl now.

2010-07-22T20:25:00.005+10:00

tired, helpless, i wandered around the shoppin centre.
i was an hour early. my head was spinnin tryin to think what i should do to past time.

eating quietly on a bench while pretending to look like i'm enjoying lookin at my itouch.
there was actually nth on the screen. juz music in my ears.

though it doesn't hurt anymore, but i knew it was infected, everyone said so.

first thing the doctor saw me he asked, "where's mommy? is she coming?"
i smiled n answered him, "nah, it's just myself today."

i forgot how it felt to have someone always beside me like it used to be.

just my luck

2010-07-18T21:52:00.006+10:00

friday, is supposed to be a happy happy day for us students, cuz duh, it means the last day of sch for the week!

but last friday for me, was deadly unlucky.

i only been to school for less than 5 mins and i injured myself.
i was walking down hill, i somehow lost balance of myself and slipped, and fell.

i can't really remember how and why i fell, not exactly but don't worry. i'm still alive. :) what i think happened was, i accidentally stepped on a tiny branch from a tree with my left foot and next thing i know my left knee hit the ground. i stood up, feeling the pain, looked down at my left knee to see bruises. -what a way to start off my day-

i told myself, it's nothing, i'm just going to go to the toilet to clean it with water. i did. but i got worried when i looked at my wound carefully and saw it bleeding. inside my head i was screaming ARGH what do i do now?

when we're lil kids and we fall down and injured ourselves, mommy would comfort us and help us clean our wound and gives us affirmation that everything will be okay.

forward that to 10 years later, when you're 16 and almost independent, when you tell your mom you fell down, she laughed, and said HA! tat's just nothing. that was kinda what happened, but hold on, the full story is coming.

i told my friend that i fell, n we went to the office. and the office lady gave me a bandage. but no anti-septic to clean my wound? wth? <.< nvm. i kept thinking that i fell probably because i wasn't exactly wide awake, and plus i was carrying my bag over my right shoulder and my clarinet on my right hand.

somehow i think, if i wasn't carrying my instrument, i could have saved myself. how funny.

even after school finished, everyone went home, i had to stay back because i had rehearsal. sigh. i called my mom after rehearsal hoping that she could pick me up, she said she was still in the office. bummer. <.< i told her i fell down, she went, erm..can i call you back?

obviously she was too busy. so what then? i was left with an injured knee with a bag plus a clarinet, and what? i have to walk all the way to garden city to take the bus? FML. n i did. even the bus hated me, it was so crowded that i had to stand.

and. i survived.
mom literally laughed when she saw my wound when i got back home, bro was the only one who helped me n told me what to do.
dad only knew bout my knee after one day, n he blamed me for it, n said the reason that i fall is because i didn't eat enough food so i don't have energy to walk that's why? =.= gah.

moral of my story.
when you're a lil kid and you fall down, you have your momma.
when you're 16 n old enough, you have to accept the fact that shit like this happens, if you fall down you needa get your ass back up yourself. without help. =)

still hurts a bit. i just don't want any scars. ='(

winter holidays

2010-07-08T19:36:00.008+10:00

atest news,
Mean girls star Lindsay Lohan is going to jail for 90 days.
which from my opinion, serves her right.
i used to like her a lot, n she changed,
now going to jail should be the best for her, she should turn over a new leaf.

updates on myself,
nothing much.
the last two days had been so tiring that i still feel sleepy now.

had a webcam session at 2.25am in the morning before watching the world cup match between GERMANY and SPAIN this morning.

say cheese to the camera!!

i watched the match. and sadly! SPAIN won. i freakin x1000 hate that octopus paul. <.<
but at least, Germany is still completing with Netherlands for third or fourth place. =)

it's my second week of winter holidays now.
and luckily i feel that i've done quite alot during this holiday.
not much of time wasting. which is a good thing.

i've watched movies i wanted to watch.
i've done the things i wanted to do.
and i went for a haircut. =)

so i have a fringe now.

there's a picture showing the old hair and my new hair.

pls vote for which hairstyle you think best suit me. thank you =D

pic removed.

some friends said i look better in my old hair. but i dont know. so i need comments. =)

things not done yet on my to-do list:
FINISH READIN ECLIPSE BEFORE WATCHIN THE MOVIE.
and finished watching all the dramas

if that's possible. =)

karate kid

2010-07-04T15:12:00.004+10:00

i watched karate kid. and i'm telling you. it's the best movie ever!
so far, it's the best movie i've seen since this year. it will be on my favourite movie list. =)
those who have watched it and love it, YES we have something in common.
those who have watched it and think it's crap, BOO YOU, this post is not for you to read.
those who have not watched it, YOU MUST WATCH IT. <3

i'm not gonna tell you the whole sypnosis about the movie,
one, cuz i'm lazy,
two, you should watch it yourself.

all i can say is,
the movie wasn't wad i expected,
but in a good way,
i'll miss jackie chan's kung fu fighting stunts,
right now he should rest, he looked so old.

i'm starting to love Jaden Smith.
he's cute, as a lil boy, i don't care how old he is in real life,
and seriously, for the whole entire movie,
when i looked at Jaden Smith acting, i see Will Smith in him.
you know what they say, like father like son.
it won't be long until Jaden is as famous as his father.

Never say never,
A song by Justin Bieber and Jaden Smith,
Loving this song so much now. <3
Click here to watch the video.

not the best person in the world

2010-06-30T00:37:00.003+10:00

how i wish i could turn back time and not face all of this crap right now?
i mean life is too short to be worrying about things and being anxious.
but, how can we not be anxious?

damn it. my mind should stop thinking bout the word life.

Live

Full

Enthusiastism

LIFE.

if that make sense.

i just made that up myself.

today as i was walking to sunnybank hills, i saw something that saddened me so much.
i was walking across to the other side of the road as i saw an ambulance parked beside the road, the two doors opened at the back of the ambulance van, and two middle aged guys pushing a stretcher carefully towards the van. There was an old woman in her 60s or 70s lying on the stretcher, her body barely moving as if paralysed.

there weren't many people around them, i was one out of the three strangers there that saw this happened.

And there was this other man, around his 50s beside the old woman, looking eagerly at the old woman, worried and concerned. probably mother and son, or husband and wife. i'm just guessing. the old woman could hardly move but she was looking at that man, her body not able to move but her head was up, her sleepish watery eyes as thought trying to tell her son or husband that she'll be alright, as she was being pushed into the ambulance van.

depressed at the sight of it, i continued walking away from them, knowing i couldn't do anything at all.

it just makes me wonder
what if 50 years later i was this old woman on the stretcher?
what if there was no one by my side?

life is too short to be ended like this.

addicted to gossip girl

2010-06-27T22:17:00.006+10:00

a good blogger spends time updating their blog every now and then, beautifying their home page, et cetera, of course i don't call myself a good blogger, i might have lost my passion for blogging. right now i blog because it's a good way to record the happenings of my life.

even though my life is really boring. and you know tat too. =)

i have been watching gossip girl for the last two days. i finished the first season a while ago. i was watchin the second season. n i really love it! <3 will be watchin the third season soon. =)

the main characters in the series. from favourite to least favourite. just the five main stars.

Leighton Meester. starring as Blair Waldorf.

a bitch. but a really cool one. she has ways of finding out someone's dark secrets and blackmailing them, but she does it to help her friends, especially her best friend. =)

she's pretty and i love her character in the series.

(it's so hard to find a good pic of her. trust me. she's way prettier in the series than in pictures!)

Ed Westwick. starring as Chuck Bass. although not the best looking guy in the series, but he's got a personality that's worth remembering for.

Like Blair Waldrof, he has ways to get people out of trouble in a very amusing way.

he has a rich dad who doesn't really care bout him, which i feel sorry for him.

he's my favourite male character out of all the guys. =)

juz one bad thing bout him, tat is, sleeping with random girls. -.-

Blake Lively. starring as Serena Van Der Woodsen.
my second favourite female character in gossip girl.

she is never out of trouble, be it boyfriend issues or family issues. she has the darkest secrets ever.

she has a mother who always want to control her life, and a very complicated life.

Chace Crawford starring as Nate Archibald. a very hot and handsome guy. as you can see.

but in the series, all i can say is, he's a playboy. changing girlfriends like changing clothes.

i still like him, his character in the series is not bad, i just pity him for having a dad who commits fraud and do drugs. sigh such a shame.

Penn Badgley starring as Dan Humphrey. my least favourite male character. i don like him at all. don like him.

seriously. he's annoying. <.< sometimes he should just shut up for one second.

i just don't like his character. that's all.

Taylor Momsen. starring as Jenny Humphrey.

Dan Humphrey's younger sister. i dislike her in the series. her character. being such a bitch.

thought i admire her courage to stand up for what she believes in. but her brother is way better than her.

i love the third picture! it's sexy. xD

i don't care if my post doesn't make sense, but i really don't care. at least it might be to people who has watched it before.

for those people who has never seen gossip girl before, i highly recommend you to watch it!

you know you love me.

XOXO gossip girl ;)

i. hate. mondays.

2010-06-21T17:45:00.001+10:00

yes you got tat rite.
i hate mondays.
that is when you had a lazy weekend doing nth but sitting on the couch watching dramas all day and then BOOM. you just realised that the next day is monday n you hav to sleep early in order to wake up early the next day to go to. S.C.H.O.O.L =.=

but of course. when it comes to holidays. i don't mind. xP

speaking of which, holidays coming soon!! WOOTS! i know it's gonna be somewhat boring but i'm still excited! i don't care if i die of boredom at home, i rather not go to school n suffer 6 hours of torture. well of course minus the times when i spend with my friends. i juz loathe the studying bit really.

i had a performance today, which i think i didn't really do well. i'm not as good anymore. i know my piano skills had regress since two years ago? cuz i shouldn've played louder, i reckon i used up all my strength already but it wasn't loud enough to ppl's ears. D= my style of playing the piano. no bashing. but i think the teacher was being too kind to me, i sucked at it. she should juz be mean to me. quit tellin me i'm doin a good job, cuz from my heart i know i'm not. i suck.

n crap. i juz realised. i forgot to add the link of ppl's blog.

give me some time. =)

lazy day.

2010-06-19T22:47:00.003+10:00

pretty much like any other saturdays. i feel so lazy. but okay at least i did something.
i went shopping. <3 in the afternoon. bought quite a bit. well those things i bought were on sale. half price.
i'd be stupid to not buy it. xPP since i'm not like those ppl who buy things n juz leave it there.
i bought clothes. n i will wear them. erm. eventually.

AND. in reply to the guest in my shoutmix.
i'm sorry for not updating my blog yesterday because i was tired from a long day of school and i was watching movies till i dozed off and only woke up this morning. (okay tat dozing off bit was actually a lie but juz to catch your attention xP)

so what i did yesterday was hid under my comfortable blankets with my laptop on my lap while i lay down on the sofa in the living room watching movies.
3 movies i watched so far that i highly recommend to everyone.

"Make it Happen". A movie very similar to step up, or any dance related movies. the msg i got from this movie was you might not make it or achieve your dreams the first time but never give up. i wont blame you if you don't like it, cuz well at least i do. ;)

i like this movie. it's really good. i wonder if there was actually this kinda job. a break up artist, someone that you hire to help you break up with your boyfriend or girlfriend.
even tho, it would be really depressing if you're tat person doing that job. well basically this is what this movie is about. i won't give it all away. watch it for yourself. you'll love it. =)

and. i LOVE this movie. i mean it's funny. although not the best storyline you could ever find in a movie. but at least i love the fact that most of the famous hong kong star r acting in there. it's not until the end of the movie that i realized this movie was for chinese new year. kinda late to be watchin it now, should've watched it during chinese new year. but oh well.

P.S credits to emily for these movies. =)